Well here's another day it may seem like any other day but its not. Its starting to get normal as time goes on but i know something is missing. The days go on like a flash but i still feel like something is missing from my day and i hate it. I know its not completely gone but i know its harder going on now that one thing is gone. Its like you don't know what you have until its gone. Or well you don't know how important that something or someone is until its gone or taken from you. I wake up every day, get ready, eat and go to school , school goes by then i go home and then that feeling is their but your not. It used to be i woke up with you hoping there was no school . Then you'd be at the table eating breakfast while drawing you Pokemon or warrior cats. After we finished breakfast with maybe a few minutes to spare and wed brush our teeth then wed be off to wait for the bus to come and get us. After school we would walk down together ask how our day was it was fun. I could have protected you, helped you, teach you how to do the right thing. I always wanted that from the very beginning since the first time i saw you when we were adopting you. I wanted to do everything with you and give you the things i never had but now your gone. luckily your not completely gone but your still not here. Your my half sister your one of the siblings that's from my real family out of my crazy adopted family. Maybe its good your not here maybe its better, if things were like they were before there would be constant fighting and getting yelled at i don't want you to go through that like i did. Waking up to fighting and being in the middle of it and you cant do anything about it. But she will have a mom who tells everything to and shouldn't tell some of the things she does. Your only 8 you shouldn't have to know about all the problems that go on in the family. You should have fun with your friends and have no worry's about money problems. You shouldn't have to worry you deserve the childhood and happiness i never got when i was little. you have left so many people who love and miss you. i miss you papa, Todo ,Ethan, mark, marina, Sabrina, Hallie,barb, and more friends. They all miss you Mariah i miss you its hard every day wishing you were here. I know your happy were you are now but i know you could have had a great life here. Even though mom would have fought for you but so would papa i think you'd be happier here.
