Every day your gone i think to myself what would it be like if i moved with you? Would i feel better to be with you? Or would i still feel the regret of not staying back? I wanted to leave with you or sort of. I'm almost done with high school so whats the use of leaving? I would have had to start over, make new friends, restart where i am in high school at a totally new place. I don't think i could have done that making new friends i don't think i have the confidence to do that. I would have you with me but id be sad without my friends and id be unhappy. I am still unhappy though since your not here but I'm happy i don't have to start over. I know you wanted me to go but i know i couldn't handle it leaving everything behind i just couldn't do it. What should i have done should i have left or was staying a good idea after all. Did i do the right thing or was the right thing to go with you. I don't know if i did the right thing but this was the hardest decision I've ever made. Should i have put you before my education sure id be sad having to start over but id have you with me. I don't think my questions will be answered ever and i will have to move on past this but i hope that you will to and understand that i couldn't go with you. I know its hard for you to understand your only 8 years old so I'm not going force you to do it. I hope someday you can forgive me though because i love you. But we could have been together yes i know i could have gone down and did it but would it be right i know i keep asking this because well i don't know. I wish i could understand this and know what i should do but i don't.... if i would have left maybe i could stop you from hearing the things you shouldn't? Maybe i could help you a little bit with somethings you need help with? I don't know i just don't know.
