Demons

One

Do it

The voice in my head grew louder as I tried to resist. I wouldn't do this. Would I? He looks scared. Why is he scared?

Do it

I can't do this to him. To us. I love him!.. Right?

Do it

I am doing what's best for everyone though. Right? He told me himself. He lied to me. He betrayed me. Did he? I don't care.

My heart is pounding up against my ribs, my breath is ragged, my eyes completely compelled.

I'm not me. Am I?

Fresh blood and sweat rides the air. My wand feels weightless as I stand with it pressed up against his cold, fair neck.

"6 months you've been gone" I whispered as his eyes widened

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Confused?

I don't blame you.

To make you fully understand the situation, I Will have to take you back and show you everything that led up to this very moment.

It was 1996. Our 6th year at Hogwarts had just begun.
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I walked across king cross station towards the entry to platform 9 ¾ with my suitcase in one hand and owl in the other. I took a deep breath, so big my lungs were filled to the absolute brim, and as a relaxing feeling soothed throughout my body I closed my eyes, just for a second, as i thought about this summers events.

When we broke up, my world collapsed. He was my safe space, my rock, my person. Or so I thought at least. Every day had been a struggle since then. Getting out of bed in the morning, putting on clothes, even eating. That's also when the panic attacks started happening.

Just as I though my life couldn't get any worse everything spiraled completely out of control when it happened.

I was suddenly pulled back by a pair of strong hands. "Hey!" The voice jeered as I was pulled into a backwards hug "I missed you"

I turned around, looked up and was met by my favorite pair of glistening brown eyes. "'Blimey Blaise" I said, placing a hand on my racing heart "you scared the living shit out of me!"

I placed my suitcase and owl down onto the cold concrete beneath us and pulled him into a big hug "I missed you too" my words muffled into his shirt.

Blaise and I have been great friends since our very first year at Hogwarts when we got paired up by professor Snape in potions class. We're also the only ones with a sense of fucking humor in our friend group, so it is obviously meant to be.

Blaise was wearing a black pair of dress-pants and a casual white t-shirt with a jacket hanging swiftly from his broad shoulders, his eyes were bright and had a big smile going from ear to ear showing off his pearly whites.

We let go of each other, and a smirk formed on his face as we picked up our things and started walking together. But then, the relaxing feeling I had just before vanished and I was instead flushed over with a sea of random emotions, making my head go dizzy as we got closer to the gateway

Blaise must have noticed something was wrong when I stopped dead in my tracks "You okay?" he asked with furrowed eyebrows

I snapped out of it, and forced on a fake smile "what, oh. Yeah! sure" I stammered

He shook his head a bit and gave me a 'I know you're lying' kind of look

I rolled my eyes at him and confessed. "I'm just nervous about going back after what happened, that's all"