BROKEN HEARTED 💘

3. SNAKE VENOM

                             
                             TORTURED SOUL 《PART 1》

   MY writing flowing
A changeling but not a thing
But my writing
Is a true
Reflection of me.

But some may judge this
Piece of paper
Under my skin,soft.
Oh under the inky,metallic
Gold coloured exterior
Of my black inked pen
Scribbles alot of words.
A heavy heart spills its
Bloody tears on the white surface,

Scaring of my flesh
Only makes me hurt even more than yesterday
Secrets came out.
In one section
Judgement seething -suffocating
,the still silence.

Everytime I let it occur
The black rose colored PAST PAST rushing  ,gnashing out
leaves me mute...whenever the hurt drains
By letting myself, my hands
Misshapen, my skin
Slowly being destroyed
By bottled emotions
let me out ,let me free
Free her voice ...they say.

That's what they say .
__KING Lotus

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If only I knew the future, maybe I wouldn't have gone to the south-end and hurt my heart a little more. If only ....but on some occasions I don't regret going to south end and meeting him, on these occasions only do I wish I could have been...should have been but sadly I never did.

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I woke up feeling overly groggy, fatigued and in a slightly dazed state. Angel wasn't here to wake me up, which was strange since she did this every day. I suddenly had this strong deeply nested urge inside me to go to a part of the island I wouldn't dare cross if I was in control of my sanity but currently I knew I had to go ,quickly before the anxiety got to me.
So ,not by my own will ...I flew straight from my part of the island to south end in a very -ruler worthy path. It's strange when I finally reached south-end I felt as if I suddenly had full control over my mind and body again. But I let my curiosity lead me deeper into the 'forbidden' forest where no soul ever dared enter after mama beauty's death.  I can't help but  stare far too long at the exact spot we found her in ...years ago . I still remember how I howled into the thick night holding on to her form though heavy ... she felt way to empty in my hands as her life force melted into the earth ,while angel ran from the scene on her bear claws with her father chasing after her.

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'all life has an end to it ...nothing lasts  forever, but we must not let that stop us from ever living in the now and cherishing ever last breath our creator has given us...I'm truly sorry bloom ,but she had lived her life to her last breath '.

I had cried myself to sleep that night/early morning and just as always my mother sunk into my dream world to comfort me. I  stopped hating her after she showed me in my dreams how beautiful the earth was ...in her new form.

* ever since she made her oath ,she also vowed to never leave me completely...so we communicate through my dreams, as I can't seem to tap into my power enough to actually see her in nature...with true sight ...
In a way she's not really absent or passed on as other beings are when they die - she's rather unseen by the very ...naked iris ....
But that doesn't make me loath her any  less-
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I was swept from my wandering thought process by the now dimly lit area of the forest surrounded by a huge Maeve castle. Standing tall enough to block the sun. Though I could still feel a sought of enchantment surrounding its bearings . Taking a very shaky breath in _then _out_then in_then exhale...I stepped forward, after not being repelled by any spell . I found my confidence deep inside to carry on elevating up the large black marbled steps.

I took a sharp inhale and gulp when I noted that-the freaking doors stretched up to the clouds-I could possibly climb them to the after life ...anyway . I raised my clenched fist and knocked on the dark wooden double doors waiting patiently for some form of life.

Yeah in my whole 'explorer's journey I never did quite think to myself...why is there a scary castle in the woods?, could I be walking into the same death trap mama was too or maybe how I never felt such powerful magic growing?(my depressed state from over the past decades has distracted me from maturing my magic ...this is bad ,if whoever lives here is infact beauty's killer) - I wasn't too focused enough on my training to -

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My eyes literally popped out my skull when they processed the most ...exotic, power drippin ,perfectly crafted drink of moonshine ....I have ever came across...my entire existence and all I could say was " Are u real..."
*Cue flustered fae girl and mental slap sequence.*

"hey ...how might I assist you love". If angel were present, she would've mauled him where he stood. While still flustered and with a slowly grumbling stomach, I averted my eyes and well...stared at his ohhh so wide chest. That's when I recalled his question and how easily the words had  rolled of his velvety tongue in a deep brassy voice.
"Are you okay...love...if I may introduce myself". Still at awe of his beauty and the heat of his fingers on my slight raised chin I stared at his face more prominent...till his facade faded into nothing and I knew what he was..."Fergie ...and what the heck are y doing on my island !" I shouted right after or maybe at the exact time I was about to knock him out he snapped his fingers and held my fist in a tight grip. "Excuse me for tricking u...but love why so aggressive",
"Venom by the  way ...". And I fell straight into his arms... as if I had slipped and fell into the ocean. Starring at the eyes of something I feared more than death ...fergie's -but he gave off alot more power than a regular low class one .
Well , I never really encountered one but my mother had told me horror stories about how almost half our species were destroyed by the fergie's...And here I was in the arms of a very powerful one ...
And all I could do was fall deeper into his enchantment.

◇◇◇bye cruel existence...I'm a gonna now.

Sorry this was short but I really am busy ...I currently am writing this at midnight and I am very sleepy and bothered.

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