The Untold Story Of Jennie Kim

Love to hate me.

The most painful thing in the world, is this word "almost". We use this in our daily life. But mine was finished with it.

I almost got debuted in pink punk

I almost got my dreams fulfilled.

I wish I was unseen, unheard and never got into this group. There are the three biggest mistakes of my life.

The first one is

1. My father didn't like me, becoming an idol but I didn't care about it. He wanted me to study business. But I wasn't interested I it. But now, if you see, I am the one, who is suffering. Even though, I have a family, I just couldn't call for their help. They would feel bad for me which makes me feel worse.

The second one is

2. Having fake friends. Yes, they were my friends but only for my money, only for my credit card. They wanted me to be their ATM. Swipe... Swipe... Swipe, here is your money. They very well back talked about me.

And the last one is

3. ...Falling in love with him. It was like tasting a venom. You know it is a poison, but you still get attracted to it. Because of him, I lost my family, friends and people who were true.

It is very cold here. My hand and leg are starting to freeze. It would be better, if I leave this place right now, but where will I go. All the places I go to are closed.

Party halls closed

Romantic Restaurants closed

Entertainment closed

Malls closed.

Life can be hard, sometimes very hard. The only thing you can do right now is to give up. Shall I give up? I don't want to see sun, moon, cloud and happiness. Just as darkness is enough for me. I closed my eyes and stood over the cliff. Below me is this river of pain, which will lead me to heaven, where once you go, you can never come back. Near me is the hell or land of the devil, which is killing me every hour, minute, second.

I decided that not even a second, I am going to live here. A heaven like that is better than hell like this. This world is full of selfishness, brutal people and lies. I am fed up of these things.

My hair flung. My legs tremble. My hand shivered, the cold breeze kissed me, as I closed my ferocious eyes. I stopped thinking about everything and I said to myself...

"Oh god, why is happening to me! Save me, before I give up on myself. I, not only gave up on this, but also gave up on my dream, career, love, friendship but everything. My life contains all types of ups and downs. Many are a big steep and some of them are even valleys. Let me face it. Give me strength and take my fear. Not my life. I want to go back to those old good days where people spoke from the depth of their heart and not tip of their tongue. How lies even had a truth and justice to it. How being kind and good was more important than being rich and wealthy. It is funny how sometimes the people for whom you take a bullet, are the once behind the trigger "....

I am not going to move an inch before I tell you all what happened. I will tell you the story of my three idiotic best friend from how I meet them to how much I miss them.