I lay in my bed, my eyes closed, and I can hear my fan spinning, as the blood dries around my arm in a ring. I feel my lungs tighten up, and go dry. I start heaving like a fish out of water, salty tears sting my eyes, and my body heats up, I feel like I'm on fire but yet I'm underwater, the life being sucked out of me, like somebody's stuffing water down my throat like I'm a stuffed animal.
What's wrong with me?
I breath in sharply and I feel the air come back to me. I weakly sit up and wipe my tears away,the life coming back in, my throat clears and for once I fell sort of okay.
But this doesn't stop the thoughts from entering my mind, like demons creeping into your worst nightmares just to scare you, or when it rains on you and the rain seeps into your shoes, inevitable & disgusting.
I should've just let myself die.
.Nobody needs me.
