𝘀𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗲𝗱. 𝘳 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘢

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i got pulled into the living room by atsumu and akagi. "do you like suna?!" they exclaimed simultaneously. "why would i? we just met today but he is fine, fine as hell." they gave me shocked expressions.

"what? we were all thinking it!" i shouted using my inside voice. "i second that!" osamu shouted from in the dining area. "who beats suna?" atsumu asked, hoping for his name to spill out of my mouth. well too bad so sad.

"akaashi and iwaizumi i guess. i mean they look alike so does that count as one person??" i asked innocently. "they have two different personalities so pick one" osamu said while walking into the living room

"okay. if akaashi had iwaizumi's personality i would move schools just for him cause damn. its not that i don't like iwaizumi's looks but akaashi is just too pretty. akaashi has a nice personality but he's too nice and stoic." i said going deep into thought.

"who's the next five after suna?" atsumu asked. "she's not gonna say you 'tsumu!" osamu huffed. "URUSAI!"

"hmm. osamu, kageyama, ushijima, sugawara, and nishinoya ig" i said using my thinking cap hehe. "HAH 'TSUMU!" "URUSAI! can't satisfy everyone" he shrugged. "no more questions. put on a movie and i'm going to finish eating my food" i said with an eyeroll.

i went back to the dining area to see suna still sitting there on his phone. i sat next to him and studied his features. this man is F I N E as hell. the only reason he isn't number one is because of his puthy bangs but at the same time he pulls it off.

he caught me staring and decided to do the same. he kept inching closer until there was little space between us. for the absolute first time i didn't panic. guess i didn't care about what happens. i smirked and stuck out my tounge out, causing him to laugh.

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the other room was completely confused. never had they ever heard such a genuine laugh from the middle blocker. they didn't know exactly what was going on but they came to the conclusion that they're relationship is/will be different.

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that was the most genuine laugh i've ever heard. it was also the only laugh that was caused by me, not from me embarrassing myself nor by my torn up clothes that i had to walk around in all school day.

idk what made me so bold but it's not such a bad thing. "do you smoke or vape?" i asked him while waving my red vape. he responded by simply pulling out his black one. i smirked and popped the last of my food into my mouth.

i grabbed his arm and started dragging him through the house. "we're going to my room! dont get any ideaaas" i said in a giddy tone. i led suna to my room and sat on my bed. i took out my vape and started making smoke rings.

after a while i made suna lay back with me. "you know, you're different" he looked lost and said, "how so?" i turned towards him and looked at him. "you noticed me and didn't completely ignore me. that alone is pretty rare. i also feel like i want to tell you everything that nobody knows about. honestly i wouldn't be surprised if you were just using me but im going to tell you everything that's happened because i feel like it."

"i'm not using you dumbass, you just match my vibe and i just like you ig" he said with no hesitation. maybe i don't have to be lonely anymore. "well lets start with my parents and my sister. my sister always hated me. our parents adored her and ignored me. they forced me to get straight A's by abusing me." i sighed.

"after a while my grades began to drop. why? because my sister was bribing my teachers to give me bad grades. the beatings got worse until they gave up. then they put me in piano. i was good at it and that pissed my sister off. she completely destroyed the piano at home and blamed it on me. another round of beatings. then i started volleyball. my parents recognized my skill and kept me in it and there was nothing that she could do, well that's what i thought"

"she started nasty rumors at school and of course everyone believed her, she was popular. when she saw how it effected me she made up more. it went from name calling to full on bullying in a heartbeat. i started cutting because i found my blood satisfying. on day my parents found out but they didn't care."

"it was then that i realized that they didn't care about me at all so i started smoking and vaping. i got kicked off the volleyball team because of my sister. everyone either bullied me or ignored me so i just got used to it. then she graduated junior high and went to niiyama. never saw her again but that didn't stop the rumors so i just detached from society and i don't regret it. then one day my parents got tired of me because i 'could never replace my sister' so they sent me here."

i looked at suna and saw him looking away. i sighed and sat up. out of nowhere i felt arms wrap around me. i kept my tears in and burried my face into his chest. for the first time i felt safe.