My Childhood

things that shouldnt happen when your a little girl

So when I was growing up things were really easy. Until one day I caught my mom smoking, of course I didn't know what it was at the time because I was only a little girl. The only thing I knew is that It wasn't good either. And I caught her at my neighbors just remember the neighbors OKAY!!! I didn't tell my dad of course because again I was only a little girl I couldn't make sense of anything. So I left it alone. Here we go about them neighbors. I met them one day, it was snowing outside and really cold. This teenager comes up to the house and says, "hey my mom wants to know if you have a cigarette she can have". Of course my mom said yes I sure do. SO after that my mom and I started going over there all the time. We were all good friends. My mom was friends with all the adults there. Me and my brother were friends with these two teenagers named arielle and dakota. Arielle was a really happy person, yeah sometimes she had her moments but overall, very happy girl. Dakota on the other hand he had a look that was just so scary like you can feel the negative vibes just being around him. He wasn't the average teenager that you would think of. Let me remind you I'm 8 at the time and my brother is 6. And arielle is fine. She wouldn't harm a fly but she's about to graduate and Dakota was probably 15-16 maybe even 17 hanging with little kids. My mom didn't think anything of it. She thought Dakota was a good kid, well that's what everyone thought. One day my mom went to the mailbox with her friend and the mailbox was way down the street and Dakota was watching me and my brother I think. Again I was 8 so it was blurry. But all I remember is him taking me to his backyard and he has a blanket. He laid the blanket down and I didnt know what to think in my head. I thought, oh yay we are going to have a picnic. Then he pulls me down on the blanket and he starts to touch me where I'm never supposed to be touched when I'm that age. And I told him "stop, it hurts, where's my mommy." And he said "calm down all girls are supposed to experience this." So in my head I thought what he was saying was right. And then his neighbor saw what he was doing to me and she ran over and started yelling. So he ran inside and I just sat there because I thought I was in trouble. And then that lady held me and told me "everythings okay now I got you" and she waited for my mom and her friend to come back, and when she found out what had happened she went ballistic. After that we didn't go over there for awhile. Soon after that a detective called. And he said I should be put in counseling and my brother too. I'm saying my brother because after what happened to me my brother told my mom DAKOTA has been touching him in places he's not supposed to be touched either. After that we went to counseling and just talked about everything and to find out Dakota has done that to so many other little kids. ANd looking back on it to this day it just kills me of how he's not in jail or named as a pedophile. It's sickening to me. I just wanted to tell my story. I'm finally ready after 10 years and it feels good to just type it and let it all out. There's so much more but I just am not ready for that to come out yet.