you better be worth it + (spencer reid x reader)

TWO

"God, I've been waiting for you to spit that out for years..."
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Your face flushed as Spencer huffed, pulling over the car. The car came to a stop as he stared into your eyes, searching for any sort of lie.

He leaned over, cupping your cheek in his left hand, connecting his lips to yours. Your world went black, sending you to euphoria.

Was this real?

Was Spencer Reid kissing me?

You ran your hands to his golden brown hair and tugged lightly, deepening the kiss.

After a moment or two, you both pulled away. Breathing heavily, he smacked his lips, as if he had something on his mind.

"What is it?"

He sighed and shrugged his shoulders.

"You really like me, Y/N"

Just as you were about to reply, he cut you off.

"I mean look at you, you're stunning. You're the best person i've ever met. I cant believe you would like a freak like me."

"Spence, is that really what you think?"

His doe eyes showed yes, sympathizing for him, you reached over and cupped his cheek. With glassy eyes, he nodded. The look on his face broke your heart. Who hurt him?

"C'mon, let's go home."

He pulled away and put the car in drive again. Sniffling, he looked over at you sparing you a small smile. You sighed quietly, was this real? Or was he just messing around? Are you dreaming?

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"Y/N.....," he dragged on, "Are you alright?"
You snapped out of your trance almost instantly.
"Huh, sorry what?"
"I said, where are you going? It's freezing outside."
Oh.

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When he pulled up to your apartment you felt nothing but embarrassed. Really Y/N? Get it together. Spencer Reid is your friend and nothing else.

He put the car in park in signed, turning his head to you and gently shaking your shoulder. You slowly removed your face from his passenger window.

"Hey, are you alright?" He spoke gently with sad eyes.

"Yeah Spence," you chuckled, "I'm okay."

He reached over and caught your hand in his, giving it a small squeeze.

"I'm here if you need me, you know that right?"

"Of course, have a good night Reid."

Before he could say anything else you swiftly peeled your hand from his and stepped out of the car. Jogging up the stairs and to your door, you fished through your purse to find your keys.

Huffing lightly, you pushed open the dark wood door. Your heels clacked on the floor as you flipped on the light switch.

You made your way to the bathroom and began to take off your makeup, keeping it simple and natural.

After finishing, you began to peel off your dress as you reached over to turn on your small tiled shower. You watched yourself in the mirror while the dress slowly made its way off your body. Minor cuts lie all across your delicate porcelain skin.

Tears began to prick at your eyes as they begged to be released.

What am I gonna do??

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AN: hey heyy sorry that this is moving so slow. i'm kind of getting into the story line. Please always feel free to reach out to me if struggling with self harm. I love you, you are enough.