ellie williams imagines

Love and Lust

ellie x f!reader

warning: smut, nsfw, knifeplay, choking

It had been almost two years since you met ellie. The second you saw her you knew she was going to eventually break your heart. It wasnt until you saw her laugh with Joel about dumb dad jokes he always would tell, and watching her save her friends from the horrors outside jackson that it really hit you. You loved ellie. You couldnt look at her without the butterflies rushing up your stomach. You spent so many nights alone with her playing board games that you scavenged together that never had all the pieces, opening up to eachother about the trauma filled pasts you both endured.
One night you went over to Ellies house. Nothing out of the usual, you guys were friends and it wasnt strange for you to go over there late at night. You spent the night talking for hours. Ellie says "Do you want me to teach you a couple strings?" referring to her guitar. You of course say yes. She hands you the guitar and you start playing all the wrong notes just trying to make it sound like a song. She laughs at you and moves her body behind yours. She slowly puts her hands over yours pressing your fingers against the cords. The adrenaline and heat coming off her body made you look back at her. She looked at you with a confused face as she said "What are you looking at nerd". You stayed like that for a second before taking one hand on her face and leaning in for a kiss. She kissed back with more passion than you expected. Thats when it started. Friends with benefits with a girl you were hopelessly in love with.

-Time jump-

Its been 3 months with Ellie and i being friends with benefits. No matter what attempt you make to try to make it more than fwb she turns you down. She always says its for the best if we are friends. I know thats a lie, she just doesn't love me like i love her. Thats fine. Well it was fine till i saw another girl flirting with her a couple days back. I realized that i may never get to be with Ellie the way i want to. I realized its time to try to move on. Anyways tonights the night of the dance at the bar. I never missed a dance and i always begged ellie to come and she never would show up. Ive decided tonight im not going to ask her to come and its time for me to actually move on.

-the night of the dance-

"(Y/N)" I hear a familiar voice call out. I look around when i see Dina at the bar getting drinks. With a pep in my step i run over to her hugging her instantly. "You seem happy" Dina says. "Listen im just ready to get drunk with one of my best friends okay" (y/n) says. "Well then lets get motherfucking drunk!" The brunette says a little too loudly. She hands me a shot of rum and i down it, already asking the bartender for two more. I feel my hand being grabbed and pulled by Dina to the dance floor. We start dancing like crazy to the upbeat music playing. In this light Dina looks beautiful.
Yet everytime i look at her i feel my gut sink knowing it isnt ellie. Out of the corner of my eye i see Ellie and Jessie walking in and Ellie shoots me a glare. Of course!!!! (y/n) thought. Of course she would come with anybody else but me. Anger burned red into my cheeks. I decided to just focus on my best friend right in front of me.

Ellies pov-

It was a saturday night and I had recently heard from Jessie about the dance tonight. I was shocked because (Y/N) was always the first person to tell me. I mean shit the dance starts in 30 minutes, I thought. Jessie noticed the stressed look on Ellies face. "Whats going on kid?" He asks. "I just um- (y/n) always asks me to the dance and i usually say no but she didnt ask tonight". "Well is that a problem? if you always say no then why would you want to go" Jessie asks with a confused look on his face. Ellie admits "As you know (y/n) and i have been friends with benefits but the truth is i love her, i have since i first saw her but i push her away because im afraid if i love her if im just going to lose her". Jessie grabs my hand and marches me down to the bar. As we are walking in i see (y/n) dancing with our mutual best friend, Dina. Probably harmless right? Or was the girl too late.

(Y/N) pov-
I can feel Ellies stare burn through me but i know better than to look at her. Dina could see i was upset but out of fear of upsetting me she didnt ask what was wrong she only pulled me close. "Im sorry im just kinda off tonight" (y/n) proclaims. "Its okay stupid lets dance!! Its a slow song" Dina replies. She puts her hands around your neck and you put yours around her waist. She leans her head to your chest and you guys slowly rock back and forth. You couldnt help but look to see if Ellie is dancing with somebody else only to find her still at the bar looking at you with a glare that is actually quite terrifying. Was she mad at you? If so why? You didnt owe her anything. As youre lost in thought you feel lips on yours. You didnt register it at first but Dina had kissed you as you were off guard. You pulled back and apologized. She tried playing it off by saying she was really drunk but before she could finish her sentences you feel someone grab your wrist. You look up to see Ellie pulling you away out of the bar. You didnt get to say bye to Dina or apologize to her but for some reason you were okay with that. You could tell Ellie was mad.
She stops you halfway between the bar and her house. "What the FUCK was that (y/n)". she yells. You feel rage flow through your body. "WHAT do you mean! We arent together! Why are you mad at me?" You yell back. She looks at you almost fuming and grabs your wrists again. Shes dragging me back to her house isnt she, you thought. Ellie starts unlocking her door and pushes you in. For a second you are worried she might actually be mad at you until you feel the familiar warmth of her lips against yours. Shes kissing you so rough you lose your balance a couple times. She then stops kissing you and slowly puts her hands around your throat. She looks at you with that same angry glare but for some reason it turn you on so much your legs start getting weak. As youre trying to keep yourself up and breathe at the same time she pulls you close to her by your throat and whispers "You're mine, you should be punished for letting someone get that close to you". She then pushes you into the bed as you feel yourself turn red and slowly start to shake. Its so embarrassing you always thought. She had this affect on you where she could make you melt with a stare. As youre laying in the bed she slowly starts walking towards you. She grabs her knife out of her pocket and holds it to your throat. "Undress" She says.
You slowly start to undress. You can see Ellie start to get flustered as she watches you get naked piece by piece. Deciding to tease her, you start taking your bra off so slowly. The girl frowns losing her patience as she takes her switchblade and cuts the hooks off (y/n)'s bra. Ellie throws your clothes aside and jumps on top of you. Kissing your neck, making sure to lick back up your neck once she reaches the bottom. She hits that sweet spot below your ear and starts sucking causing your fingers to dig into her back. You were getting inpatient and the girl loved it. It fueled Ellie to see you become a whimpering mess for her and only her. (Y/N) starts begging for her fingers inside of her. "Please Ellie" (y/n) begs. Ellie starts kissing right above your sex, looking up at you to see you arching your back, forcing you to make eye contact. Ellie slowly starts kissing in all the right places, making sure to lick up your sex until she focuses on your clit. Pushing her tongue against your warmth as she starts going faster. You can barely contain yourself. You avoid looking at her knowing if she shot you a glare you'd come instantly. As Ellie is fueling off hearing you moan out her name she sticks a finger inside of you, slowly pumping and adding another finger. Your breath becomes hitched and you grab the sheets to try to hold your orgasm. Thats when Ellie puts her warm tongue back against your clit as her fingers are pushing in and out of you. You hated that she knew your sweet spots and could make you cum in seconds if she wanted to. Soon enough you couldnt stop it anymore. "Baby please im gunna come please" You cry out. Ellie eagerly responds "Be a good girl for me and cum." That sentence sent you spiraling.
She pulls you into an embrace and kisses your forehead. These moments of aftercare always felt so good because it was the closest thing to a relationship we could get to. Suddenly the night all comes back to me. Ellie was jealous wasn't she? And why? Then you look at her and ask "So what happened tonight? You say you dont want to be with me but become so protective when i try to move on." Ellie sits up putting her knees to her chest almost afraid to look at you. She seems as though she cant find the words shes looking for. "I just-" Ellie tries sputtering out. Instead she gets up and grabs her journal flipping through pages before handing it to me. I couldn't speak, it was countless pages of her admitting her love to me. Countless tries of words that were never spoken but burdened our brains. One page read, "I saw her today. Another moment i could have made into a beautiful memory given up due to me being a dumbass. Every time i see her stupid smile i picture our life together. Cows and sheep, a house far away from everyone, growing flowers so i can bring her something beautiful everyday. Im wasting everything because im afraid if i love her she will leave me." I finally understood Ellie truly. I could see her eyes red with tears from the vulnerability she forced upon herself. I reach my hand to her face and kiss her lips softly and pull her into my chest.
"i love you Ellie. So fucking much" I proclaim.
"I love you more stupid" Ellie says with a giggle.