Andy,I love you but...

What Have I Done?

Authors Note:

So sorry I haven't updated its been really really lonnnggg and I haven't updated cuz of writers block but I know what to do!! So here it is...

Ashley's POV

I'm in our old room and I cat handle it and I bet Andy can't either I feel horrible and I can't sleep. I've been up for a few hours now since the party and I have a agonizing migraine and craving liquor just to drown out the pain. I've never been much of a cutter I slept with sluts and drank till my insides are raw to drown he pain but never have thought to cut. I've seen many fans that have scars but never had any guts to do the same. Andy always told me that "life gives you enough scars you don't need to manufacture your own." I always believed him till now. I decided that tonight I have ruined everything and hurt my love, soul mate, my best friend, my rock, the one that keeps me sane in this crazy world. I deserve to die for hurting Andy. I walk out into the dark hallway not daring to turn on the lights. Too risky. I don't want Andy to stop me knowing he will. I decide to take a bottle of jack and crown with me to help me through this. I quietly get my keys and silently tell Andy goodbye. I'm so sorry Andy I really do love you And I don't deserve you bye Andy.

Andy POV

I hate Ashley. Why? Why would he do this? I hate him he knew I loved him he said he'd never hurt me. I lay down in my old bed where he slept. The one Ashley loved, not me. Since when did this he likes cc? I've been bawling my eyes out for the last hour I can't sleep it hurts too much. I just heard the front door close. Was that Ashley or the guys? I'm afraid to go check what if it is Ashley I don't want to see him. His face. After a while I decide to get up and check what it was. I go down the hallway quietly past Ashley's bedroom to the living room. I see no guys but notice Ashley's keys gone. I go back to his room but stop. What if he has his keys with him? I decide to not be chicken shit and check for Ashley. I open his door to find no Ashley just empty bottles of liquor and a light scent of bubblemint. His smell. I really shouldn't care but Im worried. Should I call jinxx and see if he knows something or just wait? I come to a decision and call him.I get him on the third ring.

"Hey jinxx... I'm at the house and I can't fi-"

"ANDY! Man I've been trying to get a hold of you for hours!"

"You have?" I check my phone to see 5 missed calls from Jinxx and 3 from Jake.

"Yes! Have you seen Ashley is he at the house with you? We can't get a hold of him either."

"No that's why I called you we got home I took a shower and I went to my old room and hung out in there. Later I heard a door slam and thought it might be you and I saw it wasn't and might've been Ashley."

"Yeah no we can't find him, will you try calling him?"

"...."

"Andy I know what Ashley did was wrong but we need to make sure he's OK and doesn't kill himself just promise me you'll try to call him?"

"Why are you even worried he's probably with some slut"

"He loved you Andy I don't know what got into him but he loved and still loves you Andy!!"

"......"

"Andy?"

"Yes fine. I'll call him."

I hang up with jinxx and bring up Ashley's contact page. I put my finger to the call button but can't seem to press it. I can't. I press down just to get it over with. It continues to ring then I almost give up and hang up when he talks.

"Hello?"

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Short chapter but just a filler I'm sorry again for not updating I be been busy and needs more sleep but promise to try and update cx its late and I need to update so here you go I'll try and update after school tomorrow so yayyyy bye xp