Call me by your name.

Introduction 1 🥀

Oliver's PoV
I put down the phone with a sigh. The sound of his voice repeating that one word 'Elio..Elio...Elio' stayed buzzing in my mind. I wondered how he felt after all this time, hearing my voice, did it bring back the memories? It did for me. If I'm being honest I had a love hate relationship with those memories. I would often think fondly of the moments we shared together and the next minute I would hate myself for being such a coward and running away, for not giving in to what we had. Could we have stood a chance was a doubt that often lay still in my mind, if I had stayed could we have had a future. I'd rather not think about it, it'd only end up hurting more because deep down I know that we'd always have a chance.

Lucy was the woman I was engaged to. A woman I swore to love knowing very well that I couldn't love again like I had loved before. But I had come to terms with the fact that she was my future not Elio. No matter how much I wish things were different, they weren't. She reminded me of him a bit. I think that's the very reason I was able to feel anything for her. To me she was the next closest thing yet the furthest from Elio. They had similar eyes but no one could have eyes like his, the light brown orbs of sunlight that I would love to get lost within again. I sometimes imagine what it would have been like to just give in to love and live in the moment but i mustn't go back to that place. I have a new life, this is my life and I'm happy. But I'm pretty sure we all know that's a lie.

'Oliver' Lucy called out to me breaking my chain of thought. I let go of the phone I was clinging so tightly onto and got up. I trailed down the steps of our house. I'd always imagined I'd say that 'our house' just not this 'our'. I reached down and was welcomed with a kiss which I so politely returned as Lucy and I sat down for dinner. I had already laid out the cutlery earlier that day, trying my best to do all the jobs possible so that I may delay the phone call that I had to make to the perlmans. It was Lucy's idea to invite them to the wedding. She had said that they played an important role in my life and they were important to me. They were, maybe even like family.

'How was it speaking to them after such a long time' lucy asked, I told her it was good and that it brought back good memories of our time spent together. Good, she has said, I'm sure you're very excited to meet them for the wedding. I smiled and nodded. Soon dinner was over and we headed back to our room. I would usually read a book before sleeping while Lucy would speak to her parents.
Today, actually most days I would read 'the cosmic fragments' a book by Heraclitus. She'd sometimes ask me why I kept reading it over and over again. I like it, I would always reply, simple. But in all honesty it reminded me of him and while I hated thinking of him it was all I could ever do.

A/N: I doubt anyone's ever going to read this book. But If like anyone is I hope you like it. The movie is one of the best ones I've watched and if u feel the same, let's be friends :) anyway have a nice day , I love you to the moon and back.