One Starry Night

OSN 1

Odyseus's POV

Cold breezy air blowed and hugged my skin, I shivered with the thought of her.

I threw the white petals from the rose on the lake, lit a candle and offered a short prayer.

It's been 17 years since she last breathe the air here. I kinda find it soothing tho'

I sat down on the grass, and start starring at the night sky, I hate it, the skies were full of stars tonight. I shooked my head and take my glance back to the lake.

Queries starts to fill my mind, why did she ended her almost perfect life here, She was loved by almost everyone.

The lake was beautiful, but it hid a thousand secrets that I want to uncover.

What makes her end her life in this lake.

I closed my eyes.

It was a peaceful night, I can only hear the crickets, It was far away from the city.

"Happy Birthday Odyseus" I gently spoke.

Tonight I have nothing to asked except for love and acceptance from everyone.

The wind blows my messy hair, I'm used to this silence every year.

No cakes, No greetings, No laughters, No Birthday Songs, No Birthday Parties. I wonder how kids felt when they get to experience this things while I seat here every year, asking myself why can't anyone appreciate my existence.

I don't wanna go home yet, I wanted to breathe,when I'm at home I feel suffocated.

I have nothing and no one except me.

Tears rushed down my cheeks but I managed to wipe it immediately, I don't wanna look like a loser.

Time passes by, Hindi ko namalayan na magaalauna na pala.

This place is soothing.

I picked up my back pack and leave that lake, The lake that brought sorrow in everyones hearts.

The lake was a kilometer far from the city, glad I borrowed Kean's bike.

Nang makarating ako sa bahay napabuntong hininga ako sapagkat walang pinagbago tahimik pa rin ang buong paligid parang walang tao, tanging ilaw lamang ng kalangitan at mga street lights ang makikita mo.

Nakabukas pa ang gate kaya nakapasok ako, When I entered the living room there I saw my mom smiling at me.

Nagmano ako sakanya atsaka nagpaalam na maliligo na.

"Magdinner ka muna anak" she smiled at me genuinely.

It's been 17years since I'm waiting for her to greet me but even once I never heard her do so.

I just smiled.

"Busog pa po ako"

Then I quietly walked upstairs.

Then I saw a man.

He was standing infront of my mother and I's room. He look at me intently like he badly wanted to shout the hell out of me like he used to, but tonight he just looked away and returned to Persephone's room, as usual he locked himself inside.

A just shooked my head.

I entered the room, it has a one queen size bed, that my mom and I, were sharing.

I'm already 17 pero hindi pa ako nagkaroon ng sariling kong kwarto I never blame them tho'.

We only have two rooms in this house, the first one was this room supposed to be their room and persephone's room, but he chose to sleep there.

Binaba ko ang bag ko sa maliit na study table ko atsaka kumuha ng towel at naligo.

I opened the shower and let the water touch my fair skin, tears were rolling down with the water.

I can feel my body getting numb.

As soon as I finished taking a bath, I wrapped my towel on my waist and went outside to change.

Tahimik akong kumuha ng boxers at sando, when I heard them shouting again.

This happens everyday what's new.

"You have your family here, but you keep on burrying yourself from the past!" I heard my mom shouted.

"You will never understand me!" He shouted back.

Nagsalpak ako ng headphones atsaka nahiga sa kama, Nilakasan ko ang volume para wala akong marinig maliban sa music na nagplaplay sa cellphone ko.

He was always like that, he thinks that everyone didn't care about persephone.

Heaven knows how much we are  grieving as well.

I closed my eyes.

I'm tired.