Farah Protection.

CHAPTER 5.

Farah

Have you been hospitalised? Have you felt how the days would stretch, how sadness lasted and time has never complied? It was a feeling of being trapped and you tried not to dwell on it because you knew it wasn't going to the fleet. It felt like I was hospitalised all over again.

I tried to get used to Haris and I knew I should because I was stuck with him. At least until the threats would always remain as it was; threats. I didn't hate him, no. I hated the idea of personal guards and I don't think that would ever change.

It has been a week since my garden outburst and it was clear Haris tried to give me some space, maybe the little humanity in him finally kicked in or he just didn't want me to lag off in him which had a low chance of ever happening.

"Ready" Ruby enquires. I'm grinning, shopping was on today's agenda and it seemed like such a pitiful thing to be excited about but in this life, a break away from official business was a moment of happiness.

I love shopping, I guess it had been instilled in me as a kid. Both my parents used to be obsessed, they'd take me to the mall a chance we could get and let me model clothes from them. I remember one of my therapists through the years once telling me that it wasn't only shopping I loved, it was the good memories associated with it and they were right.

"I love the necklace" I voice. The diamond necklace wrapped around my neck complimented my emerald green dress.

"It is exceptional" Ruby laughs off and I nod.

I realized that I have been staring at the mirror for some time before finally stepping away and leading out of the closet, she follows my suit. She hands me a coat as the weather is rather biting. The cold hardly bothered me but I guess it was necessary.

As I step out of my suite, I'm met with blue eyes. Haris stares at me and my breath halts, I hate that this cliche feeling comes over me but it does. Warmth and familiarity are all I see but I snap out of it and I'm watching Haris with a hardened look.

"Good morning" he greets. It's the accent, it's always the accent.

"Good morning" I answer ignoring my hormones.

He gestures my front and I walk ahead from him to the elevator, Haris brushes my arm to press the button and there I go, overreacting, what was infuriating was that I just met him more than a week ago.

The good thing was we arrive at the ground floor of my villa in an instant, the shortened time of the elevator has suddenly become my favourite thing about this place. Or everyone's because Ruby seems to let out a huge sigh of relief when we're out of the elevator. Haris walks ahead to open the door and it seems Ruby sees an opportunity to speak.

"Princess," she said in a hushed tone. "How do you hang with him so calm,  he scares me to bits"

Haris was intimidating but he didn't scare me, maybe he even made me feel safe.

I chuckle lowly. "Tell me about it"

"Honestly" she continues, I only shook my head in return.

I murmur a 'thank you' when my door is being opened and as per usual he doesn't reply. Ruby and I chat about the pieces we're thinking of getting at the mall and I'm so excited. She normally doesn't condone me just choosing random pieces at the mall but some days are exempted.

"Fendi is good but most of their new collection pieces look alike, maybe we should wait for the winter one" Ruby explains. "Or Chanel"

"Yes, I love Chanel" I express.

"You do" Ruby giggles. "Too much"

I tried so hard to find joy in the most materialistic things because that was the only closest thing to getting what I wanted and being happy no matter how short-lived it could get, the only thing I had.

I shrug ridding of the sad thoughts, maybe Ruby seems to notice because she respectfully placed her palm on my hand. Maybe it's because Ruby and I worked so closely together but I'd like to call her a friend but it was hard because there was always doubt. After all, there were limit and limits shouldn't exist with friends.

We arrive at the mall and I step out of the car and he's standing there waiting for me. I'm done, It's fucking over for me. Always exaggerating Farah. "I'm always by your side, Princess," Haris says and it's calming, it's everything I want to hear, I need to hear and the giddy feelings come for me, it makes my heart sink when I realize that I've taken it out of context.

Harris is about to speak again but I cut him off by walking away. I didn't want to ruin my day with my thoughts even though it seemed like I already had.

The fashion route had been cleared, the whole mall had been insisted to be but I saw no use to it if I wasn't going to be shopping everywhere at the same time but it was impossible especially now that security had to be tight. Husam didn't approve of this visit nor did Haris. They both felt that preys attack uniformly because it's the least expected. I tried to care but I didn't, because I believed and I had been stuck home for too long. I need this.

"You like this," I ask Ruby. The dress was a basic wrap but had sequins adorned. I mean I wasn't one for sequins but this one particularly I did.

"It doesn't matter what I think as long as you do, of course, it'll work"

"I'll take that as a no" I chuckle. I didn't think of it hard enough.

"We're getting it either," Ruby says.

I'm bent down to check a shoe when an arm yanks me forcefully, I look up to see Lea, one of the new members of my security team. "We need to get you out of here, Princess"