Drugs

the feeling

Its not what you might think.
These drugs will make me feel great. But what i have to remember is that I owe them back.
Taking coke/meth/speed will get you this shining bright euphoria, self confidence, energy. Unfortunately the confidence is an effect of the drug, not based on any actual accomplishment. But heroin, heroin is a wonder drug. It doesn't make you do stupid shit like alcohol or amphetamines. It just makes you feel chill and you find everything positive. But i take it more to numb the pain than to actually just feel good. Its taken like a self medication rather than something to do for fun. After one hit the chemical rushes to your brain giving you pleasure instantly. The rush of euphoria only makes things worse overtime, but in the moment every unwanted feeling in my body escapes leaving me as calm as a person could ever want to be.
At the same time you have the pussies. The ones who will find it unbearable after one hit, they say its because of their personal issues, like
"That stuff makes me sick" or,
"Go ahead if you want to kill yourself, but I dont" or my personal favourite,
"I'm not into that"
Drugs are not something you can be into. You either want it or you don't. And you'd have to be mental to pass up the feeling to escape your shitty life. At least that's what I think.
I would describe the feeling as a weird sensation of warmth and safety even though in reality I'm anything but safe or warm. You could have hypothermia but still feel warm because of the heroin. Thats why its such an appealing drug to the less fortunate or as we say people from the ghetto.
But overall, drugs were the best thing that happened to me.
At first...