I miss you- a captainswan oneshot

Him...

AN: so I was listening to a song and I made me think of when Killian dies, and then I thought to myself, they never really showed emma mourning, it was more like oh he's dead welp where going to the Underworld then, heh, anyways so this idea came to my head,
Its basically the night before emma tells everyone her idea, so ya hope you injoy! Bye! :)

He was gone, her true love was gone.

She lied in her bed staring at the ceiling the storybook next to her waiting to be opened, opened to the pages of their story, she was scared to look at them.

To remember. To remind herself, of much he loved her.

She tried not to remember, not to think of him, she tried so hard not to remember the way she used to run her fingers through his hair, the way his crooked smile made her blush, the way she used to get lost in his ocean blue eyes, but she couldn't,

All she could think about... Was him.

She stared at the ceiling while slowly picking up the book, she turned a couple pages seeing pictures of the story's of the fellow residents in storybrooke. She flipped and flipped and flipped, until she found it.

She stared at the page, their first genuine kiss, the moment she realized he actually cared for her and maybe so did she. She remembered every detail of that moment.

"you traded your ship for me?"

"Aye."

She smiled almost forgetting that he was gone, that she would never again be able to feel him kiss her again, hug her again, and love her.

A tear rolled down her face and her body started to fill with so many emotions she didn't know what half of them were.

In anger she threw the book across the room, her eyes pooling with tears,

She didn't know what took over her, all she knew was that she was destroying her room throwing things, screaming and crying, she couldn't take it anymore.

She wanted, him.

She was out of breath, barley breathing, she collapsed, her knees to her chest hiding her face and tears came pooling down.
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She stared at herself in the mirror, cleaning herself up. She grabbed her jacket, boots, keys, and walked out the door locking it behind her.

She walked along the quiet streets of Storybrooke, hands in her pockets.

The air was cool, she enjoyed it though, it did help with her burning face, from crying, but she didn't notice really, she just stared at her feet. Until she stopped in her tracks, realizing where she was... The docks.

She looked up, scanning the place until she saw the ship of the love of her life.

She slowly walked closer, she didn't even realize where she was for a second, she was on the ship.

Next to the door of his cabin.

She took a deep breath, trying to hold back her tears, it worked until she opened the door, it smelt of salty sea water, rum, and something that was just so... Him. She walked around the room tears falling down her cheeks as she took it all in, she sat on what he called a bed,

She laid down cuddling his pillow, balling, as she smelt the remains of his scent on it. Normally she would complain about how the bed was so uncomfortable..

But she didn't; she was too busy mourning him. That night she slept in his cabin,

Waiting for the sun to rise so she could go and see her parents and tell them her idea...

AN: So! This was made a long time ago but I thought I'd post it on here! I'm not sure if many people will see it since the show sadly ended but I hope you like it! Sorry for the angst :/