𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙟𝙞𝙣. -𝙈𝙞𝙣𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙚

Chapter 12 [the end]

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING⚠️
This chapter will contain self harm and suicidal thoughts if you don't feel comfortable you can skip this chapter

CHANGBINS POV
I ran and ran and ran I didn't care where I ran I could barely see anything because of my blurry vision caused by my tears I eventually stopped and was in a empty playground. I sat down on a bench and asked myself why I even exist. I've hurted him so much already, I don't deserve his love, I don't deserve him, I dont deserve to live after what I did.

I lowered my head down looking at the floor as tears rolled down my cheeks I noticed that Next to me was a broken glass bottle. I took a piece of the glass and pressed it againt my skin and thought Maybe he will be happy if I'll be gone since he hates me started to cut my wrist slowly as blood started to pour out but I didn't care I couldn't feel the pain because of how destroyed I already am.
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HYUNJINS POV
I remembered my heart skipping a beat after what jeongin told me I stood up and ran outside with Jeongin to look for Changbin, I'm was so scared that something bad could happen to him.
"Hyunjin you go left and I'll go right" Jeongin said and I nodded and in that direction.

After some minutes which felt like hours I stopped to catch my breath but then something caught my attention I saw a silhouette on a bench in a playground. It better be him, I said in my head and ran to the bench.

I froze when I saw Changbin cutting himself, my eyes because watery and I came back to reality after few seconds. I took the glass piece out of his hand, throwed it away and screamed "WHAT ARE U DOING?! DON'T CUT URSELF! Jeongin just told me what was going on and I'm so sorry for what just happened! I don't want to loose you!Please, don't hurt urself because of me" while crying and hugging him tightly.

He pushed away, "No,no, please, I don't deserve you, leave me... JUST LEAVE ME TO DIE AND ROTE IN HELL HYUNJIN! AFTER ALL THAT PAIN I GAVE YOU AND YOU'RE STILL TRYING TO SAVE ME?!" he screamed while sobbing.

"Let's just break up, you truly deserve someone better than me..." after this words I felt like I've lost all my hope. I never felt as upset and mad at myself then ever, but I couldn't just give up on him, he's the only reason that makes me happy, loved and gives me a reason to be alive.

"Don't say stuff like that! OF COURSE I WANT TO SAVE YOU FOR A REASON! YOU'RE A GOOD PERSON, YOU'RE CARING AND YOU NEVER GAVE ME ANY PAIN UNTIL NOW, THE ONLY THING THAT REALLY HURTS ME THE MOST IS SEEING YOU TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF BECAUSE OF MY STUPID, SELFISH SELF. I AM SO SORRY AND I CAN'T SEE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU!" I told him while looking at him with my red swollen eyes

"I need you more than you could ever imagine! For the first time I was actually happy, I had someone that cared for me and loved me and I know you don't really mean what you just said, you're a great boyfriend and if you want me to be happy then just let me be with you!" I said and took of my jacket and gently tied it up on his wrist to make the bleeding stop.

I looked at his face again "Please, I love you... no matter how many mistakes you or anyone else does, I can't get you out of my head, not even after a hundred years..."I said

CHANGBINS POV
I looked at him with my swollen and red from crying eyes and hugged him tightly while crying. "I'm sorry" I said, "I'm sorry that you had to go through this all, I love you more I swear" I told him while choking on my tears and just continued crying into his arm.

I heard him also crying and saying "I'm also sorry for making you go through all of this". Then he suddenly holded up my chin making us face each other, we looked to each others eyes for a second and then he kissed my lips passionately. I missed his lips being on mine, I kissed him back while putting my hand on his cheek.
"Hyunjin I love you and one day we will get married and stay together forever" I told him as I broke the kiss looking at him

"Yes baby we will because you are mine only mine"

The end
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