Suicide Hotline

Humble Beginings.

"Ah, the smell of red roses in the beginning of spring," I said in a soft-like, smokey voice. "Isn't it a superior day? She couldn't respond, not because she had no voice but she was scared to say it. "What's the matter Eden?" " The roses are a bit faded, and only three days into spring, i don't know what could possibly of happened to them. " As she responded in a faint voice. She was scared to tell me, to tell me of her story,the story of how she came to be, but I would always be here for her. Wait I'm way ahead in this Diary... JOURNAL i mean. Anyway I was born In Sweden, In October on the 20,2002 so I'm a bit older, I wasn't a very social person before I met Eden. Eden is a beautiful girl who seemed that she wouldn't talk to a weirdo like me but she said I'm not so that was a relief ! Okay let's start from the beginning. Edën Mäe Rayne was born August 20, 2003 to Nova ,And Allen Rayne @ 6:10 A.M. She weighed 6.7 lbs and was 17 in. Eden was born in Germany, And I from Sweden so we had differences, like our leaders. But eventually I moved to Germany and I was nearby her villa. She was the first to greet me , she lived two houses down and we were in-between our neighborhood park. I was a boy who was interested in the new found technology like a velociprocter- An invention By Anna Balkans -A 13 year Old - It is a velocity powered helicopter. Eden was a "Neek", as she called herself, a nerd/geek. She was interested in old anime shows like Black Butler, I was like What the hell is that? But anime is basically Japanese cartoons, but more grown up. She forced me to watch geeky shows with her and soon turned into a "Neek". I didn't want to but I did, my favorite old show is Doctor Who. It's amazing! She wasn't popular at school and Neither was I at first but I grew to be, because I was from a different country. She was hurt inside I could tell. She told me that she wasn't interrogated by everyone until Eighth grade year. That is when she gained that 30 pounds because of recent surgery and her brother dying. Her brother died of Glaucoma Disease. She was depressed because that's all she had, her brother was in the tenth grade and about to graduate because he was a very smart person, but he didn't want to leave his little sister, his name Was Roden Råö Rayne . He was 16 at the time of his death. So Eden started to binge eat and she gained the extra weight she was 10lbs overweight then 20, then now 30. She is still overweight by 37 pounds. She is 157 lbs. She stopped eating and starved herself and constantly was dieting and exercising because they said she had "Thunder Thighs" . But she had a thigh gap so large it wasn't even real but she soon began receiving more negativity from others and she eventually she had starved herself and exercising excessively so she went to a therapist and was diagnosed with anorexia. She came home and Directly ran towards my house. And she was knocking on my villa's door and I turned and said I'm right here, and I told her lets go for a walk to the blossomed fields that I have discovered. Wait, I shouldn't be getting to this part yet. Let me Explain when I first moved In. (This story is from our entries in a diary and/or a journal !)

December 10, 2019

As my mother and father were unloading the D-Mover, A girl from two houses down rushed over to greet me and my family, with a tray of something. I couldn't place what was on that tray of silver but as she got closer I saw that they were homemade cookies. She saw me standing by the big truck and asked, "Are you one of the workers or one of the family members here?" She said very shyly. "I'm a ... I'm the son of the Keigslan's ! Nice to meet you and your name is" she interrupted me by saying , "Here have some chocolate homemade cookies! Oh where are my manners? My name is Edën Mäe Rayne, I'm two houses down , I'm the daughter of the Rayne's, and also the only child now. As she said with a sad look on her face. I asked her why she said that as if she lost a close person. " What do you mean by that er. Eden?" As she replied with tears in her eyes, she dropped the tray of cookies and fell into my arms "I'm so sorry! You look so much like him and he just has gone west!! I'm so sorry!'' She was just so devastated because this boy had gone west ? What does that even mean? I kept asking myself this, he just has gone west. Did he move west , or what? I just couldn't figure it out. A few minutes later she finally settled down and mascara was all down her eyes and cheeks she just looked like a raccoon. I grabbed her a tissue, and she apologized for the liquid mascara and tears all over my shirt, and it was alright. She then told me that her brother was Roden Råö Rayne. I realized who it was and I was in total shock. My class back in Sweden was learning about this majestic kid and he had the highest I.Q. Out of anybody! I turned to her and said, " Oh my Goodness when did he pass? She tried to reply but couldn't. She just pointed to her house and so I walked her down to her house and i knocked on the door and her mother got her and thanked me for bringing her home and Then she gave me more cookies. They must really love to give others baked goods!

December 11, 2019

Well we are settled, and It is Sunday so i get to know Eden Mäe ! I got all nice just to meet her at her house and ask to go to the park in the center villa. I walked over there and she was sitting there in a window just stuck in a haze looking at the swans in the lake, she looked just as beautiful as a swan. I then took a deep breath and knocked on their door. Mrs. Rayne answered, then Eden interrupted. "Hey,I'm so sorry for yesterday. I shouldn't have acted that way. It was so rude and immature of me. I'm so malarious at times."

Okay, this is me talking in the real world saying i have to go now, i have to bake her cookies, that she has made from her secret recipe and i shall eat them in her honor!!

December 25, 2019

I'm sorry it's been so many days I was venturing at school and with Eden. It is Christmas day, and As of my Mother's traditions, she leaves me and takes off to go see her pets at her father's ranch. What a bummer. I told Eden of this and of course she invited me over and she was even courteous enough to buy me a present. Eden was so amazing she got me a Doctor Who Tardis. I was so flabbergasted because she knew how much I loved the Tardis, and I got her a cat sweater, and she absolutely loved it. Even though I got it a size to big, she wore it every night, as he said it reminds her that she has a brother again because of the smell I gave off when I had it. Eden turned to me and smiled she gave me a giant hug, and I was blushing as bright as A rose. Her Mother came and handed us hot chocolate and she felt sorry that my mother couldn't be with a wonderful young boy like me, I felt bubbly inside. Eden took me outside along with her family and we had a snowball fight with all of the kids on the block. We were out there for hours and we all had fun. I knew Eden hadn't smiled like this for years. She had the biggest smile I've ever saw.

December 25, 2015

Hi Diary! It's Eden, and Oh boy how this Christmas is Special. I never thought I would have another happy Christmas ever again. But with Ender around its like heaven. But my fear still troubles me. How will I face that table full of big and fattening foods. I will gain a thousand pounds if I eat a full plate. I'll just get some ham, potatoes and green beans. Three main parts of rhe food pyramid. Meat, starch, and vegetable.  Well I can hold it down until we change for the Christmas mass. But what really scares me is Ender. What if he comes upstairs and finds me throwing up again. He hates it. He is taking care of me the same way Roden did. Roden would sit with me all night so i kept food in my stomach. And Ender has done it once or twice now. And I don't know what to tell Ender.... I've been struggling to tell him that i like him, but I'm too scared of my fears.  If I loose him, I'll be With Roden again. It will be amazing, yet sorrowful without Ender.