I can still hear her voice. Her love, I can feel it still. Her lips, mmm..I can taste. Her small figure, her long natural brown hair.. all of it, I can feel.
I wish I could see it still.
Karrueche.
God I loved her more than I ever loved myself. Kae taught me so much, how to stand alone, how to cry, how to laugh..
She never taught me how to love though. And that's how I lost her. All the fighting, constant cheating, wishing we never met each other. If I could just rewind my life back and start over with her I will.
But I know I can't.
And now...I have to move on with my life.
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“so, Chris. Where is the album? How's it going?”
“It's good, and it's finished, Angie. I have big plans coming up in my future. X will be it.” I spoke into the microphone.
“Hey, I believe you. You got a lil something for the listeners to hear? You brought a record along.”
“Yeah. Stereotype. My favorite,” I said.
“Wanna play it?” I nodded.
I moved the microphone from my mouth as Charlamagne slid in the record. The room filled with the sound of my voice. I really didn't like this song. After it was over, I moved the microphone back.
“I like new flame.” Angie stated.
“You always liking something.” Charlamagne laughed.
“what? I do!”
“It's coo' everyone likes that one. Usher and Ross did a smash on it.” I laughed.
“see, Charla'.”
“anyways, Chris let's go into your personal life a bit. What happened between you and Karrueche?”
“What happened between me and Kae...” I sighed. “a lot happened. I did wrong and now she's done with me. I was telling myself before I came here that if I could rewind my life and start over with Karrueche I would in a heartbeat, but I know I can't so I'm forced to move on. Ya feel me?”
“I don't think she's all the way done for you. Y'all still got a lil love connection?”
“Of course, g. Always.” I said. “Nothing but love.”
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I wonder if she was listening. I wonder if she heard what I said, for fucks sake. I need to apologize.
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