(ON HOLD)Strummed by Deku (Deku x Reader)

Chapter 4, Was it worth it?

I squinted my eyes uncomfortably to the shining light that was placed on me, my hands reaching upwards to block it out. My head was spinning in spirals, my body aching..what the hell happened last night. I try puzzling the pieces with a tired expression, my eyes suddenly going wide awake as everything hit me all at once. I was at a party, that I remember, I drank, not a lot just a fair amount, and then I slept with someone..hold on slept with someone? DEKU? I picked my body up and looked around the room crazily, my palms pressing into the bed sheets to get aware of my surroundings. It was empty and Deku was nowhere to be found. I was left stranded in his very own dorm and there was not even a sign of where he went. "I should've at least expected it." I groaned and decided not to swell on it, standing up to search around for my clothes. I then heard a door unlock, my body shifting to grab the blanket quickly to cover myself. I saw one foot step forward, then the other, then their entire self. It was Deku. I held my chest in relief, dropping the sheets to slip on my clothes that were lets say.. casted aside somewhere far from here. "Oh, you're up already, morning cutie." I smiled shyly, bending down to pick up my shoes. I began to feel a pair of hips brush towards me, his grey basketball shorts shielding nothing but that already hard boner into me. "Hm..I wish I could take you right now just as I did last night but we have class to get to, don't you think?" He lingered his hands onto the lines of my hips, leaving kisses as he did so. A low moan escaped my mouth, how bare I looked compared to him. "I do agree with you, unfortunately." I turned around and kissed him to catch him by surprise, a sly smile replacing my lips as I continued to dress. "I had thought you had left already for class or worse, left me stranded and to wake up to your roommate instead." I took a seat on his chair that resided in front of his desk, now finally being able to take a moment to examine the room. A small All Might figurine was rested on it, along with many other small merchandise by him. Maybe he hid the posters incase the person he brought back would be terrified of it. 

"Nah, I didn't want to wake you up so I took a quick shower and besides..you look cute sleeping too. Oh and don't worry about the roommate situation I texted Bakugo what was going to happen so he just stayed over at Denki's dorm." I brought up my foot to tie my sneakers, my head looking upward to share a chuckle at him. "And you told him?.." "Y/N, of course I spared him the details. What kind of person do you think I am." I rolled my eyes playfully and started walking towards the door to leave, my hand resting on the handle. "I think you're a lot of things..which I will not tell you because we're both going to be late to class." Deku jogged over to my side to place another kiss on me, this one being longer because we really were going our separate ways; not permanent however, or at least I'd like to think. "I'll catch you soon, thanks for spending all this time with me." I gave him one last smile before leaving, trying my best to make it seem like I was not just leaving a guys room. Maybe I should've asked for his number to keep in contact, make him feel that it was obligated to stay with me. I could turn around and knock again saying I forgot something..no too obvious. Well, there's no going back now. And besides, he isn't that type of guy he proved it himself..right?

Time Skip

It had been at least a week since I last saw Deku. No signs of him were left anywhere, nor any talk went around me of his whereabouts. It was as if he had erased his whole identity and took in a new one. Everywhere I searched he was nowhere to be found. Not at the parties, not at the stage, not near his dorm, or even in any of the classrooms. Had he just vanished? Abandoned me even though every single time he said he wouldn't. Was I just a hit and go, was HE what I thought he always was. And to think he had a potential, potential for me to finally end up falling for someone and not out of pity. Made me think we were playing a game of cat and mouse, pathetic. I decided to carry out my thoughts into the library, my anger rushing through my veins. Maybe the library was not a good choice, knowing how you had to be quiet at all times and for me I could scream out of any given moment from fury. I picked up a book based on my studies, wanting to distract myself and steer my mind away from that green haired boy. I dropped my body down onto the ground to rest against the shelves, bringing my knees up to my face as I buried myself into the pages. Despite my eyes being glued onto the text, my eyes still wondered into the abyss of what could have been. Reminiscing what I still had to be precise. He made my body feel praised, my insecurities no longer one to him. Those marks on my legs that I best tried to avoid where nothing but streaks of healing to him. Everything I refused to acknowledge about myself felt beautiful to him. Those two words continued..to him..to him. And if this was the case, why'd he leave then? Why would he revert his hard work, making me question myself every forgiving day. Imagine being hung up on a dude that you barely knew for 24 hours..could be me. Get over yourself would you already? 

I winced out in pain to sensing another book fall onto my head from up the shelves I was residing on. The thump being rather loud enough to gather the librarians focus. I subtly gave her a thumbs up as an apology, my bickering smile returning to who the hell dropped a book on me. I lifted one side of the book to see who it was, my jaw dropping to who I was seeing. Wait hold on..am I imaging things? Is it really him? I removed the rest of the book from my head to get a second look, my jaw quite literally making its way to the floor. He was still looking forward towards the rows of books, unaware of what he had done. "My bad! I didn't notice I dropped, are you alr-" His face made its way to look down on me, the surprise catching him along with his open ending sentence. "Y/N..its you." We looked at each other in silence for awhile, taking in our presence the same way we did back at the party. Cold..afraid of saying the wrongs things...remotely terrified we would try killing each other while everyones back was turned towards a book. I picking myself up and shoved him away with a scoff, "Yeah hello to you too." I tossed my notebook back into my bag and looked up at him with a fake smile, "I'll see you around then?" I say, making fun of what he spoken of earlier on in our introductions. "Y/N wait!" He took a hold of arm, causing me to sling back farther. "What do you want? Another hook up? Good luck finding someone else." All that pent up anger I had was impatiently flowing out, my venting being taken out on him. "Just give me a chance to explain myself, here join me in the other study room and we can talk." Surprisingly I listened, following him into the spare room. The room was vast, floors of books everyday with study desks at the first one, the table covering the lower body of whoever sat there and lightly dimmed lamps to accompany. As soon as we entered the place and we were left alone, I took the chance and slapped him across the face. He yelped and threw his hand back to hold his cheek, giving him a frightened look. 

"Where were you? All this time I searched for you and you were nowhere, and now you show up? Do you know how it makes me feel? Like a fool to just throw myself at you and abandon all strength to confront you?" I grabbed him by the collar of his jacket and shook him out of anger, the blood from my face draining me pale. "I planned on asking you so many questions back then, but just you..you make me forget about all the possible dangers of being with you. You do this to me Deku, no one else!" I threw him away and went over to by one of the chais, my hands running through my hair in disbelief. He stumbled back to land against the desk, our distance spacing us out to the extreme. He was speechless, was he not expecting me to ask this? Did he just think of me as a mindless person that as soon as I catch his eye I would throw myself at him again? "Ask away then." He finally broke out to say, my face turning towards him with a confused expression. "What?" "You wanted to ask some questions right? Go ahead and ask!" I gave him a smug look, and shrugged. "Okay..here goes nothing. So what is your true intention with me? Was I just another tally for you? Do you see something more than what we have right now, come on tell me." I saw him pick up his feet, now walking towards me. He got closer and closer, backing me towards a corner till I reached the ends of the wall and there was nowhere else for me to move. "What are you doing.." I ask alerted, jumping to the loud noise he made with his fist when he banged the wall. "What I've been trying to do all this time.." His voice got quieter despite the fact there was no one else but us in here.

What was he about to do next..