Underneath the Ruffles

My Childhood

Hey guys! This chapter will be kinda a backstory of Eren and his childhood. Hope you like it, also Eren is a cross dresser .

Pink, Purple, dresses, tights, ruffles, bows, sparkles. Those are all considered 'Girly' things, but I like them, and I'm a guy.

Ever since I was very young I had loved those types of things. Pointed to a pretty dress in the window and told my mom I wanted 'that'. She would just look at me with pity. I didn't understand at the time that I was different, I thought that all boys wanted to wear big frilly skirts, and pink hair bows.

It wasn't until I entered kindergarten that I started seeing the difference between me and the other boys my age. They always liked to play with the monster trucks and mud, while I preferred playing dolls and house with the other girls. At the time, my mother and other adults thought I would grow out of it, labeling it as 'A Phase'. I always told my mom that it wasn't a phase, I actually liked playing with the girls, I felt more comfortable with them. None of the other kids really cared they just thought I liked girly things, thankfully they were accepting.

In grade school, I had to transfer because bullying got so bad. Boys would shove me up against a locker and call me gay. Constantly reminding me that I was different than the rest. Making fun of me was like a ritual to them, and I was the sacrifice. The name calling started to slowly stop, they ended up just ignoring me and started pushing me around instead. I would come home each day with a fresh bruise on my sore body. That was when my mom decided enough was enough. The next week I was already starting at a new school, this time I would be enrolling into a middle school. It was called, 'Sina Middle School'.

For most of my life I had been begging for my mom to let me dress like a girl, not minding keeping my hair short since she wouldn't let me grow it out either. She finally gave in when I started at Sina, buying me a whole new wardrobe over the weekend. I was absolutely ecstatic.

On my first day, I wore a maroon short dress that came about four inches above my knee. The sleeves were a quarter length so it looked more casual. I also wore thick long grey socks that reached just above my brown combat boots. I layered a heavy dark green jacket over it and topped it all off with a short, gray, knitted infinity scarf that matched my socks. I was absolutely nervous as fuck, anxious to see if my new classmates would react badly.

I carried myself proudly through the school grounds, stopping occasionally to look at something that stuck out. People looked at me and pointed, I could hear them whisper "Look its the new girl." I was glad they didn't notice my lack of boobs. Some of them even mentioned how they liked my dress or, "Oh, she has really cute shoes." I heard the bell ring and I headed for my first class.

~~~~~Time Skip to After School~~~~

A nice girl and a shy boy had asked me to meet them after school. The girl had raven hair and serious but beautiful gray eyes. She also sported a white dress and pink flats, shivering. She must've forgot a coat, I had thought.

The boy on the other hand, was bundled up in a sky blue coat. He had on tan jeans and red converse. His blond bob haircut and bright blue eyes, partially hidden by his huge red framed glasses, made him look
slightly nerdy. He was adorable in my opinion.

I waited under a fully in bloom cherry blossom tree. Enjoying the pink petals float around me, caressing the wind with their faint scent.

"Hello." a raven haired girl said.
I was slightly startled.
"Hi, I'm Eren. What is your name?" I questioned politely.

"I'm Mikasa, and this is my best friend Armin."

I glanced over to the side of her spotting the small blond boy, he looked up and said, "Hello, my name is Armin Alert. I sincerely apologize for not recognizing that you were speaking to me directly." He was a smart one, I could already tell by the way he spoke.

The next couple months I bonded with these two forming a trio as the school year went on. Of course I made many other friends but those guys, I considered them my best friends. Luckily, the feeling was mutual.

After about two months, I told them that I was actually a guy and to keep it a secret. Only my inner circle knew this though. Mikasa, Armin, Jean, Marco, Connie, Sasha, Christa and Ymir knew this. They still referred to me as a girl, as I had wanted, but didn't mind a bit. My confession only made all of us bond together and have a stronger friendship.

Three years passed with my friends, all of which were amazing people. except maybe Jean, I always thought he was a dick. We were always bickering until the accident. Marco, Jean's BFF was killed In a car crash our eighth grade year. He became more drawn back and secluded. After a couple months though, we all learned to forget the place in which Marco always sat at lunch, and how he always gave Sasha his extra food when she was hungry. Marco eventually was never mentioned all together,except when someone accidentally slipped up and said something about him. Jean would always break down while we all just shut up and grieved silently.

Mikasa had become like a sister to me, always standing up for me and beating anyone up who mention what sexuality I was. She was over protective, sort of like a mom in a sense. She always checked up on me and gave me her food if I was still hungry, she truly loved me like a sister. I either came over to her house or her to mine everyday, we were basically siblings, and then we actually became One. Mikasa's parents were murdered coincidentally at the mall when a gunman shot random people. Unfortunately, her parents fell victim to the madman's firing spree while they were Christmas shopping. Mikasa only became tougher and more protective of me after that. She also became my adopted sister.

Armin Is my other best friend, we always hang out when we have the chance. We have a very close relationship, considering that we all three hangout daily. He is a total bookworm, unlike the Athlete Mikasa, who picks up a ball every chance she gets. He is the smartest in the whole school, a genius. For all the years I have known him, he has won both the Spelling Bee and Geography Bee with a breeze. He always has succeeded in winning the whole thing and getting tons of scholar ship money. He even has gone to the Galápagos Islands multiple times through it. All the teachers and Professors wanted to make him a high school Junior the moment we hit eighth grade. But, his parents refused because he was very timid, thus, he wasn't ready for such a big leap.

My first year in highschool was fine. The usual study, eat, sleep. situation. I still cross-dressed and most people didn't care. A lot of girls complimented on my clothing, knowing I had a killer sense of style. Especially when it came to my eyes. People would just stare into them for minutes, hypnotized by their beauty. Everyone complimented them, I heard the comments multiple times a day. My eyes are a mix between a bright turquoise and ocean-like blue. They were cloaked in my long, thick dark brown eyelashes that looked like they could knock someone down with a gust of wind when I blinked. I agreed my eyes were gorgeous.

Life was good. Life was great. But, life changes. And the outcome isn't always what it seems it will be. Good or not.

How do you guys like it? That was Eren's past up until his freshman year of highschol. The rest of the story will mainly be told in his Sophomore year.

I DO NOT OWN ATTACK ON TITAN OR ANY CHARACTERS UNLESS STATED OTHERWISE. I JUST OWN THE PLOT AND STORY!!!!

Hope you guys will like it! Check out my other story 'The Red Of Which We Drink"! Have a good day!

~Rabbit