Loss

Introduction

    I was born in a little town called Dalkey on the west border of Ireland in 1998, a beautiful baby boy, crystal blue eyes, and a huge smile... a huge smile... anyways they gave me the unique name of Zaevyn Andrew Breathnach, Breathnach meaning Welsh in Gaelic. I had a small family, me, my brother, Joshua, my mother Jassin, and my father Lauchlan. We lived in a nice home and we were a happy family... but, happy families always have their secrets. My brother Joshua had...issues. I know now that he was a schizophrenic with a hint of some other mental problems. Jassin and Lauchlan didn't want anyone in their social circle to figure out that they had a "troubled" child. so they did everything they could for him, pretty much in secret. They took him from doctor to doctor, therapist to therapist, but nothing seemed to make a difference in Josh's behavior. After enduring fourteen years of suffering Josh couldn't take it anymore. On May 16, 2002 my brother stabbed himself in the throat during my fourth birthday party. I walked into his room to see my brother bleeding out on his bed, and ever since that day I have blamed myself for his death. I made the day about myself. I wanted one day to be just about me and not about how they were going to try and treat him. To make matters worse my mother and father were pretty young, and now terrified of what effect this would have on me. So they did what any logical parents would do and shipped me off to an orphanage. And this is where my actual story began.........