unfamiliarly familiar (f.w)

ch. 7 - the summer of 1994

july 1st 1994

i swear each year something crazier happens each time... i had a blast this year to say the least. finally being able to go to hogsmeade was amazing and of course the twins had to drag me to zonko's every single trip to fill up their stock. two girls from the house quidditch team, angelina and katie, joined us a couple times. i liked the girls but angelina always tried to pull fred away from the group... the girl was bloody obsessed with him! of course, i can't really blame her. freddie's so kind and funny, who couldn't like him. george keeps teasing me and saying i have heart eyes when i look at fred but hes full of shit. i briefly had a crush on him but realized i can't crush on my best friend, it would just mess things up... right?

my uncle sirius escaped from azkaban this year. it gave us all quite a fright, especially when he was supposedly roaming the halls of hogwarts. i frequently saw a black dog and soon learned that was uncle sirius just not exactly in the way i wish i did. harry, hermione, ron and i got into another unfortunate situation this year. we ended up at the shrieking shack and ron's bloody rat turned into a man called peter and sirius turned out to be completely innocent. what a great way to meet my uncle. we talked a bit before he had to leave. he apologized for not being around when harry and i were little. i think he meant draco, but i mean he is harry's godfather too. oh and my favorite defense against the dark arts professor i've had so far (even though that wasn't saying much) turned out to be a werewolf. will i ever have a normal year? 

hermione and i finally figured out a way for me to send them letters without any suspicion from my family and it was literally the simplest thing ever. i just needed to get my own owl and make sure the owl delivers the letters to my bedroom window. why do mione and i complicate everything so much?  mum actually helped us figure that one out. she wrote to me a handful of times this year, of course without my father knowing. she is going out to buy an owl for me as soon as i get home. mum is the only thing making me feel better about going home. i know things won't change or get better but at least mum wants to help me be not so lonely, even if it is behind my father's back.

4th year please come faster.

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august 10th 1994

the drastically horrible summer just took the best turn it possibly could. i'm going to the quidditch world cup with the weasleys. father got tickets for him and draco, leaving me to stay at home. i was absolutely devastated. draco kept rubbing in the fact that he was going and i have to stay home with mum and the house elves. i wrote to george and fred all summer so when they found out i wasn't allowed to come with draco and my father, they were furious but they surprised me with an invitation to go with them. this summer i've been able to open up a lot more with mum than i have in the past so i told her more about my friends and she was actually rather happy for me. when i mentioned the world cup with the weasleys she insisted i go but to just stay out of sight from father and draco. when i wrote the twins back they were so excited. i just really hope father doesn't see me. 

setting the excitement aside, life at home has been rather concerning. mum keeps warning me to stay safe and be aware of my surroundings. i'm not entirely sure what she means because whenever i ask her, she says she can't go into detail. she looks incredibly worried though. i've noticed bags are beginning to form under her eyes and she always looks like she hasn't slept in days. her and father don't have the most pleasant relationship anymore either. father was never one for romance or affection, however he doesn't even look at mum anymore. i've noticed they sleep in separate bedrooms now. i tried asking draco about it but he told me to mind my own business and leave people alone. he's starting to turn into father, it scares me. the loving brother i could go to for anything is disappearing before my very eyes and it sucks because there's nothing i can do or say that will change it.

i leave for the world cup on the 18th and all i can think about is seeing the twins. i miss them so much. george wrote to me saying fred won't shut up about me coming with them ever since i accepted their invite and i better hurry up and get my ass to the burrow before he hexes fred's mouth shut. i love them.