I don't want to be the villain (KiriBaku)

Chapter 1: Katsuki Bakugo

Aizawa continued to talk about some of the many plans for the week, but all I could hear was Deku behind me mumbling about something nerdy. It took all my strength not to cuss him out. His annoying voice echoes in my eardrums, even when I put my hands over them.

I look over at Kirishima who looks away quickly. "Save me," I mouth when he looks over again. He laughs silently and then looks over at the board Aizawa was writing on. Deku stops talking and looks up at my smiling face. I quickly turn my attention back to the teacher.

When the bell rings everyone gathers by Deku, blocking my exit. They ask him a bunch of pointless questions, the only people I don't see by him are Kirishimia and Kaminari.

"Can you idiots move?" I yell.

"Come on man, calm down! Why are you so angry all the time, take a chill pill!" Mineta says, as if he isn't freaking out about boobs all the time.

"Is this coming from the class pervert?" Jirou laughs and everyone else joins.

They move out of the way, just enough for me to escape and I quickly walk away. When I make it to the hall Kirishima and Kaminari are already talking about something stupid. "What are you morons laughing about?"

"Didn't you watch that movie last night? What was it called, Twisted Fate? It was hilarious! Right Kiri?"

"Yeah it was! You didn't watch it?"

"I was doing homework."

"Yeah, because you definitely seem like the Study-And-Do-Your-Work type," Eijirou laughs.

I wasn't lying, I do my work and I do study. I may not seem like the type, but I am actually pretty responsible. My lowest grade is a B plus and that's in math, only because it's boring. I may not seem like a lot of things I actually am, I have a lot of anxiety and I have a lot of second thoughts about the choices I make. I don't like being mean, it just happens. I do like everyone in class 1-A, they are all nice to me and I try but fail to be kind back. Kirishima is my favorite, I actually have a crush on him. No one knows I'm gay, and I plan to keep it that way. It would be the end of the world if they found out about my little crush.

I do have a lot of panic attacks, especially at night when I have nightmares. Most of my nightmares are about my class. They send me away, calling me a villain and lock me up forever as they walk away angrily, I yell back to them asking for forgiveness. I always wake up in a sweat, breathing hard. I always end up in tears, yelling at the top of my lungs. My walls are soundproof, or at least I assume because no one ever comes to comfort me.

The walk to our next class, science, was silent after that. Not even the annoying phone charger says anything. Out of the corner of my eye I can see Kirishima staring at me as I slouch forward, walking the same pace as them. I wonder what he's thinking about.

I sit next to Kirishima at lunch, who stupidly chose to sit next to Deku, Todorki, and Uraraka. "Why are you sitting next to these losers?" I ask, sitting down.

"Oh, hey Bakugo." He sounds disappointed, is he upset to see me? Why does he sound so sad all of a sudden, he was just talking so happily with them before I arrived. I look away, acting annoyed but I'm mostly anxious.

"Anyways, so back to All Might, which is what we were definitely talking about, wasn't he so cool today! They got the whole thing on camera and everything!" Deku says, everyone looks annoyed. Is it because I'm sitting here now? Maybe I should just move, no then they will think I'm weak or they'll think I hate them.

"Hey, Bakugo is everything all right? You've been angry less recently, and you've been. . . I don't know, distant I guess," Kirishima says looking at me. I look into his eyes with a sad expression, how am I supposed to reply to that?

I quickly change my expression to an angry one, "shu-shut up Shitty Hair! I'm fine!" I quickly lie.

"If you say so," He says, turning back to Deku and the others.

I start to eat my food. I got pizza, fries, and orange juice today. As I eat, my mind keeps wandering back to Kirishima. Why did he look so disappointed to see me?