I'm so tired of pretending.
Pretending that your words have no effect on me. That I don't feel my soul shrinking. Feeling helpless and hopeless. So many years wasted on caring what you thought or felt about me. I'm tired of letting you have so much control over me. I'm tired of you. Your empty words. The false promises and loving encouragements that are actually just folly. Lies!!
I truly thought you were protecting me when really you were holding me back.
While you were giving me warnings or letting me know how bad the world is; you were really trying to scare me into staying.
All for control.
All those lies just to keep me under your control. All your mind games and mental abuse were to cover up your pathetic urge to control those around you.
It's sad and pathetic, Dad.
I both pity and hate you. These past few years, you've only shown your true colors more and I'm tired of it.
No more.
I'm tired and can't take it anymore.
