The Art Of Giving Up || jihan ✔

Epilogue

"damn it's so cold outside." Jeonghan immediately closed the door and turned the lights on. He wondered why the house was empty when Jisoo clearly told him that he has no plans. He placed the strawberries that he bought awhile ago and placed his coat on a nearby rack.

"where the hell is he?" Jeonghan asked himself when suddenly his phone chimed.
Mingyu's name appeared on the screen and Jeonghan was more than happy to answer it.

"babe? what's up?" Jeonghan answered.

"did you get home safely?" Mingyu asked that made Jeonghan chuckle.

"you literally dropped me off at my front door, of course I'm home safe." Jeonghan giggled.

"babe do you want me to come over? It's cold and i don't want to be alone" Jeonghan could feel that Mingyu is pouting on the other line and that made him laugh like a mad man.

"okay okay, just drive safely okay? I love you." Jeonghan hummed and noticed a white envelope neatly placed on the center table of their living room. He then took it and to his surprise, his name was written on it.

To: Yoon Jeonghan

"I love you too, I'll hang up." Jeonghan hummed in response and curiously opened the white envelope. Noticing that it was a long letter, he sat on the couch and took time to read it.

Dear Jeonghan,

I can still remember how you fought those bullies and saved me. The moment you reached your hand out to me, i knew that i was inlove. The funny feeling that i felt everytime you say my name never ceased to exist. The way you smile at me would always make my heart beat faster. The way you laughed at my corny jokes flutters my heart. Ever since i met you Hannie, my life became better. You made me feel that i was worth loving. That i deserved anything and everything in this world. You made me feel so many things and that made me fall for you even harder. I've always wanted to shout and say to you that I'm inlove with you. I have always loved you Jeonghan, not just a friend, i loved you as a man. I tried to ignore it, but everytime you call out my name and smile to me, I'd always end up falling for you all over again. I wanted to confess my feelings to you at highschool graduation but fear took over me and i backed down. I've been in love with you ever since the day i met you and i am still in love with you. Those tiny gestures that i did, hoping that you'd notice that i care for you more than just a friend. Sadly you never noticed it. I remembered how you cried when Seungcheol cheated on you, i honestly want to whisper in your ear and say that I'm here Jeonghan, why won't you love me instead? I saw you fall for someone else and that sank my heart. I couldn't even bear to think that you're happy in someone else's arms. I wish that it was me, it was me whom you cared for. I wished that it was my name that you always call out every night. I wish that you were in love with me instead. It hurts how i keep on allowing myself getting you hurt because of some guy. The burden in my chest kept on getting heavy everytime you cry. That day when you brought Mingyu home, i wish that it was me who kissed you. I wished that it was me Hannie. But now, Everytime i look into your eyes, all i can see is happiness and contentment. That never happened when you were with Seungcheol, and that happiness in your eyes never appeared whenever you're with me. I am happy that Mingyu is taking care of you like how i wished i did instead. I'm happy that you're finally at ease in Mingyu's arms. I've always wanted to be the one doing that to you. But knowing that Mingyu is doing a very great job, I'll leave it to him instead. Thank you because i met someone amazing as you Yoon Jeonghan. Thank you because you became my friend. Thank you because you let me love you. I am now leaving my heart to you, because i don't think that I'd love someone as much as I love you. From a reckless boy that i have met before, you became someone who is so much more. You deserve everything Jeonghan. I love you and i always will. Thank you for coming into my life. Be happy, okay?

Love, Hong Jisoo

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