Unfair

Starting from family to the people I'm surrounded with, Who have always treated me like an error. Why is life such a hard game? One with twists, turns, levels that seem impossible to finish and is nothing but unfair. Only a few make it through and some just..don't. No matter how hard they try. Maybe this wasn't written upon their fate.

It's practically like having a friend push you through a narrow plank of wood where beneath lies the fire of hell. You can't turn and go back neither can you give up. You just have to go along with it and walk straight with that terror installed within you that you will fall at some point. Knowing that you will die but you still gotta go through it all.

Yet, I am one of the 'Others' who can't make it through the finishing line on time no matter how much effort I put onto it.

People say so many things like:-

'live life to the fullest',

'live, laugh, and love'

'enjoy life the way it is 'cause you never know if there is a tomorrow'

And so much about the importance of living and enjoying life. But my question is:  Do People Really Even Mean That? Because at the end of the day, they are the ones going home and pressurizing their young ones, children, siblings, and family about not being a better person, not bringing home good grades, being so healthy (Inhumans would use the term 'fat') and not being like other people who just so seems to be the exact opposite person in front of them are. THEY are the ones comparing their children to the next 'greatest' child they know from some relative, saying things like 'Why can't you be like other kids?, Why do you not study? Why are your grades so poor? 'Why can't you make us proud and happy like other families? What will society say? What will the people think?'

Whereas these children are the ones who try their hardest and go hell and back to just make their parents smile. If their hardest isn't 'hard enough' for people, Who do they think we, Children are?

Is it really that hard for families and society to just understand what we are going through? Is it that hard to understand that 'I am trying and I am trying my hardest, I just can't make it through'

Can we just say it out loud already?

'My mental health is more important than my grades or for caring whatever the goddamn thing this society says'

Proving myself to someone I met like 2 days ago, Being 'the perfect child for everyone to look up to', Bringing home the greatest results, Always remaining to smile even though there is like a ton of things going on inside your head, Dealing with anxiety and depression, and just....keeping up with your very own life. you have been trying so hard to keep up that at a certain point you forget that this is YOUR life and that you are still a child.

Sometimes we are so caught up with trying to make everyone happy and be the 'perfect' in everything that we forget that we have our own desires that need and have been waiting forever to be fulfilled. We forget that we have our very own needs. We forget how much this chaos in our lives is affecting our mental health only to be worse. We forget that being 'perfect' isn't the last thing in this universe. We forget that everyone has that one part of them that is not the best. We forget that humans can never ever be perfect, simply because there isn't anything in mankind called 'perfect' - if so all that is, is 'overthinking'. which is just unfair