My heart weighs heavier as thoughts of him with another girl plays in my mind. We made a deal and he broke that, she is my friend. I lay awake staring into the darkness, my eyes wide searching for reasons why. I always find out shit did he think I wouldn't find it out? My heart sinks deeper in my chest as my thoughts wonder wild with words others have told me.
You deserve better
He slepted with her to hurt you
All he wanted to do tonight was hurt you
I wouldn't go back there, I wouldn't do that to you because your an actually really cool chick and I love you as a friend.
But that last comment hit me different because she lied to my face. And yet I still believed her because I thought she was a friend. Obviously I got that wrong again. Can never pick the right friends, guess that never changes no matter how hard you try. I throw the blankets off me in anger letting out a scream as a tear escapes and rolls down my cheek knowing I can't trust anyone. Suddenly my phone lights up the dark room from the floor. I peer over the edge of the bed rubbing my eyes trying to read the letters on the screen.
Amanda😍😘 is typing.....
I scramble for my phone, what has this bitch got to say now. I try to hold my phone still as I swipe it open but the shaking won't stop. Ohhh great she wants to catch up, mean she has no idea who the fuck she messing with. My vision starts to blur as I snap my emotions off. He doesn't deserve me, I'm worth more than this. I start to control myself knowing I'm not happy with it but I can't do anything about it. I reply to her messages bluntly hoping she is getting the hint that I'm not happy with her at the moment.
Did he really love me? After all he is bagging me behind my back. I've heard things
going round and round running through this town making him sound like he's the hero and I'm the villain. You know what fuck it he can be the hero, I can take the fall. If that's how his story goes, he can say it's all my fault, whatever helps him sleep at night he can make me the bad guy, he can make them all believe it. What they don't know is I tried to make us work out, but I couldn't save us. No one could save us.
I grab my keys off the shelf and storm to my car. Everyone's words repeating over and over in my head making it unbearable. I open my car door slamming it behind me letting out a scream as I smash my hands on the steering wheel. Why the fuck can't people tell the truth. Why am I always made to look like the villain! My phone lights up next to me as I get a message from Brian saying he got a message from Dean. Great more drama, I open the phone and start to read.
I can't say much else either bro, to be fair people think I'm still lying but I know what I know and shit not much else I can say. I know some stuff said is true never denied that but having sex three times doesn't sit in my head but what she said was I was drunk and I know I been getting blacked out last like 2 months so it's not even fact I can say it didn't I just genuinely do not remember.
Fucking lier. He only had 6 bottles of beer the last time we fucked, how does he not remember! I start my car angry and speed off down the drive. Why don't people believe me? why don't people actually tell the fucking truth? Im owning up to my shit and look where it's getting me! At the moment fucking no where! I push the petal to the floor as I feel my car pick up and my mind wonders what would happen if I just kept going straight right now. Would anyone miss me? After all I've just been drama. I close my eyes as my life flashes before them and my tears become uncontrollable, this is for the best. My arms begin to shake on the wheel as I keep it straight making sure I go straight off the cliff. I can't help but open my eyes as I feel the car lift off the ground, everything becomes slow motion as i start heading down into the green bush meeting my death. I let out a blood curling scream as my bonnet makes contact with a tree causing my head to smash on the wheel.
Everything goes black.....
Everything is peaceful.....
No more drama....
No more worries......
It's finally over.
