Forced Into A Marriage

Chapter four: Tears and Love

Tarin prov

I was sitting in my room on my bed, my knees were pulled up close to my chest and i had buried my face in the palms of my hands, with my hair covering me like a certain. I just couldn't fall asleep, the pain was not like any other pain I'd experienced, this one hurt way more and made me cry way more, it was the pain of betrayal and it hit straight for my heart which affected the rest of my body, my breathing, everything.

Why, why me?
Why did i have to loose everything, everything was lost that night that my parents were taken from me, that night my voice left me, that night everything changed. But what hurt more was the loss of my guardian angels, mum and dad why did you have to go?

I cried so hard and was in my own world with all my questions, regrets, hurt and blame that i didn't notice when someone entered my room, i don't even know how long the person had been here for and i didn't care at all at this point i just wanted it all to stop i wanted to be back to how it was before, I'd do anything to go back, anything.

I looked up when i heard the person sit next to me and the mattress go down from the weight, it was my uncle. But something was different about him tonight, he was so stiff and i couldn't see any anger clouding in his eyes, he wasn't breathing heavily, no none of that. He was calm looking, and i even saw a little regret and hurt but that can't be right. Right?

He lifted his hand and i automatically flinched away because i thought he was going to hit me but no he started to wipe my tears away, his hand was trembling as he looked down at me and wiped my tears that ran down my cheeks. I didn't know how to react, this was all so new, why was he doing this and why now?

Is he only doing this for me to agree to the proposal?

Andrew prov

I went to her room, but when i seen her in the state she was in, hiding in the very far corner of her bed crying and trembling, all thoughts about coming in here and forcing her to accept the proposal went out the window. I just couldn't bring myself to hurt my brother's and sister's daughter anymore then i already have, i just couldn't. I ended up pulling her to me and holding her for  the first time since the accident that took her parents, my sister and my brother in law away from us.

I had blamed it all on her, i punished her, i accused her and all the time i knew it wasn't, she was only a child. No one could have known that would happen and no one could have stopped it. But i continued to blame her, it made moving on from their deaths easier when i put the blame on someone else, when i had someone to take the blame for the loss of my little sister, the little sister i promised myself to protect at all times and even give up my life for her and then there it was she was taken from me, she left me just like everyone did. Now i see my wrongs, now i see i was wrong for hurting this child but i couldn't turn back not now.

"Tarin, y...y..you have to accept this marriage proposal, you have to do it. But not only for us, not even for the company but for yourself. For a new start and to finally have someone to love and most importantly someone to love you," i wiped the tears from her face rocking us back and forth on the bed, until i heard the soft snoring of my little niece.