"Wow I feel so bad, I know you must miss them."Angel said as we swong back and forth on the swing.
"Yea I do miss them I wish that day never happen, I just..... I don't know I just can't believe my mommy and daddy is no longer here."I said with my head held low.
"Hey cheer up.All of us have gone threw something, my mom was rape and shot right in front of me.My dad.... my dad is the one who did it."Angel said as she hoped off the swing and sat down at the bench as I followed her.
"Oh my gosh."I said as I gave her a hug.
"It's okay he's locked up now and my mom.... my mom is in a better place,that's what Ms.nana said"she said refering to our foster mother.
"Yea maybe she's right."i said as Ms.nana told us it was time to leave.
Bed time.....
I looked up at the ceiling as a tear slid down my cheek.I miss my mommy and daddy.I looked to my right as Justice laid there sleeping.The rain woke me up and i cant sleep.i dreamed about my mom and the good times we had.i woke up to get in my mommy bed then i remember she's dead.i cried softly as the door creped open as Ms.nana stood there.
"You still awake child."Ms.nana said as she walked in the room with her night gown on and pink rollers in her hair.
"Yes."i said as i sat up as she down in the bed.
"Come down stairs so i can get you something to drink,you have school tomorrow i don't want you sleeping in class you hear?"she said as i shook my head yes and she took me down stairs and into the kitchen.
She opened the refrigator and poured both of us a cup of milk and we sat down at the table.
"Why were you crying?"she asked.
"Nothing."i said as i drunk my milk.
"Oh child you can tell me."she said as she sat next to me.
I took a deep breath.
"Im sad that my parents are dead and i miss my mommy so much it hurts me to wake up and to see that she's no longer here,......no longer here for me."i said as i cried as she held me close.i felt protected ,i felt safe.
"It's okay too miss someone,sometimes things happen for a reason you must not know it yet but you'll know later.And she is here for you ,you just don't know it.Just remember there's always someone out there watching out for you and protecting you wheather there living or dead." She said as she sat me on her lap."You remind me of my daughter.Your cute curly black hair ,carmel smooth skin and oh that beautiful smile of yours with the most deepest dimples."she said as she pinched my cheeks as i laugh.
"You are something special and never forget that,don't you ever put yourself anything less then what you are.You deserve the best and you will be the best "she said as she held me close as I started to feel better again.
"Thank you Nana."I said as I hugged her back.
"You welcome, my twinkle little star how I know what you are. "She said as I looked at her.
"You messed up the song, it twinkle twinkle little star how I WONDER what you are."I said as I smiled.
"No I didn't because I know what you are."she said as she stood up
"What am i?"I asked confuse as I scratched my head.
"You are a gift sent from heaven to do great things,you shine like a diamond that you are and that what you are."she said as she walked up stairs and tucked me in.
I smiled at her as she smiled back as i drithed off to sleep.
Ring!Ring!Ring!
My alarm clock beeped as i wiped tears frome my face.i sat up out the bed as i threw on some black sweat pants and a black tank top with my black and white Jordan's and tied my hair up into a bun.I was not in the mood for bull shit today,I walked out the door and headed to work as I got in my car
After work......
Work was fine since Angel scary ass was not there.I pulled up into my driveway as I seen Jason at my door step.I rolled my eyes so damn hard them bitches might have hit the my rear view mirror already.I got out the car and headed to my door as Jason stepped in front of me.
"What in the hell do you want?"I said as he grabbed my hand as I snatched back.
"Babe please don't be like that I made a mistake. I miss you, I love you and I want us to work. "He said as he he tried to grab my hands again as I stepped and looked at him like he was a piece of shit on my shoe.
"GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY YARD! "I yelled as he looked shock.
"Babe-
"GO!I DON'T WANT YOU HERE,STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME AND GO WIT YOUR BITCH!"I said as I quickly open my door and slammed it in his face.
Oh my gosh,I can't believe I just did that. That shit felt so damn good.He old news and it's time to move on.
