Where do I start in the bible if what I seek is counseling? Out of all the books I feel like the Wisdom literature would be the best place to start. I've already been drawn to Ecclesiastes time and time again. My heart aches and I just want to know where to start? I feel as if I have been answered but I need this off of my heart for the moment. I need to speak these words. I want someone to listen. To just stop everything and truly listen to me. I do not need words back, I need a pair of ears from a caring person. I bow down to God as my savior in every need. I've accepted him in my happiness as well as in my darkest hours. I need Him constantly! My heart is open to you, so please hear me tonight as well.
I keep searching for the answers in my own head and I know it is blocking me from truly listening to you. I am struggling with this discipline. How can I miss someone I have not met? I want to be with you my God. I want to feel your love and warmth and I want to be embraced by you. I want these physical things from you and yet I know they are unattainable. Is that a sin? To want something so badly that I know I cannot have, that it physically pains me? Am I the only one who feels this?
I feel so cut off from the outside world and I don't know how to reach out and grasp it all. I want to breathe again. I am suffocating in my own head. I am in the clutches of evil, I know this. But it feels so impossible to escape alone. My head goes opposite of my heart all the time, it is so confusing. I want to know you God. I need you. I know I need you.
YOU ARE READING
dear self.
Non-FictionDear Self, I'm writing this for you to come back to and read when you're at your darkest moments. I know you aren't ever actually alone in this fight, but sometimes the fight only happens in your head. You are such a truly strong and courageous pers...
