down to infinity [l.s]

chapter one.

The dearest love always comes from the unwanted one. The mystery of fighting against the law to make ourselves proud and courageous. The adrenaline our heart pumps every second we know we are doing something we should be doing. I don't know how else to explain it, but our hearts love dangerous stuff. It loves finding the riskiest way to love. Whether the law is written or not. It just loves being dangerous.

If you ask me what love is for me. What representation of it life gave to me. Well I have the clear image of two people fighting for it. Since I can remember, the two persons in the world that probably love me the most, have always fought to love each other. No, it isn't mom and dad. I love my mom, I guess. I will always, but the memories I have of her are reduced to none. Dad will always be the person that loves me the most on this planet, even though sometimes, he probably wishes to send me to boarding school, still, he can't and will never be able to hide his pure love for me. I am his little princess.

But dad. Dad wishes he could love someone else. With me, like he wishes he could add a person to his love list. I've always known it, since I was a child, the deep need of being in this person's arms always holds tight to the pupil of his eyes.

The narrow room he had of choosing whether he could smoosh his lips against his love, or jump in bed with them, was only in his imagination.

Real life happened, and let me tell you. Real life can suck- You can believe that someone has full control of their lives by the smile he gives to those around him, but when you see behind those close curtains, you see this jungle of mixed emotions, tiredness, and thigh contract, controlling their every move.

And you guessed it, they were young and naive at the moment they signed it, but that is just it. They were young and naif, blinded by their eventual famous life. Thinking that when they got to the pike, they would be able to just rip that white piece of paper that meant nothing in their heart, yet everything outside.

But again- Life happened, and our young protagonists were stuck face to face to their own signature. Behind the walls, nobody cared, " Do what you wanna do", but as soon as they stepped outside of the door. " We are just friends. And it took sometimes before they were courageous enough to be together at home.

And after, the time passed, and our heros were now confronted with another thing. Stunts, fake relationships so that the public wouldn't suspect anything. "Put them two in another relationship so no one will think the relationship consists of them both."

You get the point by now right?

The thing is that they thought it would only be a phase. They truly thought they would be over this in what- weeks? But their love was stronger than everyone else. And if you ask me what love is I would describe it to you like this.

Love is when two people's souls meet. When you love someone you have the feeling that nothing is impossible, you could go anywhere, do anything while you have that people's love in you. It's your courage, your happiness, your sadness. Love is when someone knows your life better than you, when they know all your deepest, and darkness secrets. Whether love to you means feeling the pressure of their heart, everytime they cross your eyes, or the simple little words you give each other in the morning. Love comes in every form out there. No one is going to experience love the same way. And that's what makes it so special, the mystery of it because honestly- no one knows what love really is. Who saw love for the first time and told themselves - " That is love",. We don't know what the first person who felt this feeling felt, maybe love is hate, or love is sadness.

okay I am getting off track here, but you understand what I mean.

This gibberish was all to explain that,

Once upon a time, in a country not so far from where I am. Two souls meet, on this weird and special evening that will soon enough change their lives, for the better or the worst. At first, they were just each other's crushes, not knowing if the other one felt the same. But before they could even know, their management team were quicker than them on their own feelings. A new contract strictly prohibiting them to even love each other while under that contract. 3 years. The first contract was originally three years, but for the sake of their fans, they renewed it, even though this end could mean their new beginning, but they were too good for that. They added two years to their secrecy, and then year gambled up to the contract.

All of this for the lack of evolution of certains.

One of their main goals doing this is that they would grow out of it. They thought it was only a phase. But that's where they were wrong. Their love is the strongest shit no one ever saw. When it would be out there, it would rule the world. In a good way trust me. And we kept waiting and waiting for it to happen, but no.

Now let's get to our story shall we?

I'm Kia. But this story isn't about me. This story is about my dear loving father, who grew up faster than he should have. I was a surprise to him and mom. His highschool sweetheart, wait can it be a high school sweetheart if they were still in high school? They learned after six months of dating, that they were expecting a child, happy six month right. My dad didn't know what to do, he was totally outraged. My mom on the other hand, knew clearly that this child was going nowhere else than in her arms. And my dad didn't have a word to say about it, because it wasn't his body who was about to carry a child for the next nine months, but he agreed, happily.

While my mom was in her last month of pregnancy, my dad auditioned on this show called, the x factor. Hoping to become the next big star with his little brown scarf and grey t-shirt. He looked younger than I did. A real baby. No one would have thought he was about to become a dad, and that was good for them.

He was put in a group alongside four other boys, who would sooner than later become his best mates. Zayn Malik, Liam Payne, Niall Horan and- Louis Tomlinson. They all wanted to become the next big thing, and they got it. Together they formed One direction, and took the world away before they could even realize it.

Three weeks after the ban was formed, my mother gave birth to me in the most excruciating pain. 3am, august morning, in screams that were killing my dad inside. Only if they could know that my arrival would cause the death of someone. After pushing me out, I cause her to bleed out. And even though she was in a hospital, they did everything they could have done.

People at home don't talk a lot about this night because it brings a lot of trauma, but growing up, I knew I killed my mom. I don't know how my dad still loves me after I took away his first love.

My dad raised me with the boys. Even though I was raised by grooming teenagers, I think I turned out pretty good.

But if there was one thing I was raised by, it's belief. Trust, not in others in just- life. Everything happens for a reason, my dad always told me. Every tear falls for themself, because they need to get out. Whatever happens, we'll figure it out.

-end.

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thanks to jade for all the encouragement on this new story <3