benefits between friends / l.s

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gif is louis looking at Harry when Harry is sitting down

quick a/n: ik this took forever. but one, im a major procrastinator. two, i really am busy. oops. but here it is, and i think its realllllllyyyyy long. (probs not considering im v dumb lmao) enjoy. PLUS PLEASE READ A/N AT THE END OF THIS CHAP IM RLY SOWWWY

Harry

After I had introduced myself to the class I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to seem like a rude person or anything, and I didn't want to disrespect the teacher.
Usually I wouldn't care, but this is a new school and I need to look good. Especially for that one person who had caught my eye.

I guess that's another reason why i'm still standing here. I'm lost in thought about how this could possibly happen. This can't be true. My mind is just running wild. It had to be a trick. I was just stressed. Even if it was real, he wouldn't know it was me. I think I look too different. My hair has grown out, gotten curly. I'm obviously much bigger. Plus looks arent the only thing. It was one summer. Years and years and years ago. I was just another random kid to him.

'A kid that was his first kiss' - My subconcious adds.

"But he was mine too." I say under my breathe so quiet I myself almost don't hear it.
It feels like I have been up here forever just thinking. It had only been a few seconds. I decided that even though Louis wouldn't know who I was, I could still admire him. It's weird, I know. Like im some stalker. I'm not. Hes just mesmerizing. It wasn't only his looks, It was the idea of him. I didn't like him, not like that, but i'd just like to see what goes on in his head. What he has thought about over the past few years.
As soon as the thought had popped into my mind, I shook it out. It was stupid. He was nobody.
The teacher told me to sit back down thankfully. Just as i'm sitting down I glance at Louis one last time.

He's looking at me.

He's looking at me with those intimidating eye. It's like he is checking me out, moving his head up and down in a short and slow manner. I know hes not. He's just seeing who the new kid was. Like everyone else. That's all.

I quickly sit down, pushing the hair out of my face and keeping my head down. The sooner this was over the better.

/

Most of the time during that class I thought about how stupid I was. I shouldn't even know who Louis is. It was one stupid memory from when we were kids. I was overreacting and thinking about it like it was just last week.
I decide on a clean start. If I ever talked to Louis again, I'd act like i didnt know him. I'd let go of the memories. Louis would no longer be in my mind.

Soon the bell rang and everyone was rushing out. of course my eyes landed on Louis and the blonde headed boy. They were whispering, Louis glancing at me a few times. I brushed it off, remembering what i told myself.

No longer in my mind.

While I walk to my next class I think about ditching. I'm just not feeling up to the whole 'new school' idea. I can't skip though. I needed to be here.

/

I don't even really care that it's lunchtime by now. My stomach had stopped making grumbling noises and felt more nauseous. I really just wanted to leave. This whole day has been shit. Just because of my little 'get-up' i've been thrown into the group of nerds. Honestly I didnt think it was that bad.
I sigh loudly, walking into the room filled with disgusting smells. Most of the people were standing and walking around with their friends, laughing and horseplaying. I just want to sit and enjoy some time alone without being shoved or whispered about.