Hey mom lately I haven't been feeling myself, I feel like I been disappointing everyone even myself, I know you tryed to help by reaching out to me and finding therapy but I can tell you and dad are getting tried, I don't longer want to be a bother anymore.
I hope one day you and everyone else will have the heart to forgive me and all the wrong I have done and I'm very sorry you didn't see me grow up and left this world at the age of 15 and I know next month will be my birthday and I'm sorry you couldn't be able to see me turn 16.
I'm every thankful for having you as my mother and also thankful for my siblings that I learned to love and hate,
I just wanted to say that you did a really good job on raising me and I'm very proud of you for leaving my dad and finding a love who actually stayed and treated you and me like his everything.
It's not your fault or anyone fault I'm no longer here, I feel like I don't belong here anymore, I'm tried of feeling like shit every time, I wake up and feel like I disappointed the whole world so today I plan of ending it all, I'm sorry you had to find my body in my bedroom laying there bleeding out.
I love you I really do, I'll miss you all and I hope you forgive me for what I've done.
-Love Alondra (Alex) :)
7:24pm Wednesday, February 10/21 (alive)
4am Thursday, February 11/21(dead)
(Update it's now sat,apr 3 and I'm somehow still alive)
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