My shawtyyy

Month 1

Iyonna's POV

Next week me and the Saylin's are supposed to go to North Carolina. I didn't tell Giovanni because we were going for 2 days and it was strictly business.

I didn't want to get her mixed in with my stuff. She claims RMS but I don't know how deep into she is. For all I know she could have just joined.

Unlike me I was born into it. So were my brothers and Father. My father doesn't really care for it, he just wants us out of the game.

My brother says he's going to stay as long as my dad stays which is most likely until they die. I still haven't made up my mind yet about what I want to do.

I'm about to graduate soon and I know I should have my mind made up but I just don't. It's just that I love life now so why would I change it.

I know I can't stay forever so I might give it a year or two after high school then start thinking. I do have a side job that pays well anyway.

No it's not selling it hair and nails. I do people's hair and nails around my hood. I guess I could major in cosmetology but that's a lot of work.

This gang shit is dangerous but not as dangerous as they make it out to be. Well maybe it's just because nothing really scares me.

Yeah I've seen people get shot. Have I killed anyone? No! If I have killed someone then I didn't know it. I've shot a lot of people tho.

If body's could count for how many people I've shot then I'd have like 20 body's.

I guess you could call me crazy but if it ain't me or someone I love getting shot then I don't care. Especially if they ass claim thk.

I don't really sell drugs. Well I do but only weed. I have never even thought about selling that heavy shit.

My dad won't let me sell anything at all but if someone comes up to me asking for some I sell it to them. I'm not giving up no good weed for free.

One time in 9th grade my so called friends were taking these pills. Me being the follower I was back then decided to take 2 trying to show them up .

10 minutes later. Literally 10 minutes, I don't know why it hit so fast. Maybe because I was so skinny and fragile back then.

Anyway so 10 minutes later I was high as a kite. I don't remember nothing at all from that day. My Dad ended up telling me about it but right after he beat my ass with his belt. It hurt like hell. He got me a couple times with the metal piece.

He said, and I quote "you took 2 Molly's. I guess after they hit you started roaming the school hallways. You left campus and just kept walking. I heard from C'Man that you walked to the stop sign and started taking to it."

"......When he asked you who you were talking to you said Elmo. Then you starting saying how it's always been your dream since you were younger to meet Elmo and you finally did."

And was.

"He tried to pull you into his car to bring you home but you started screaming "I don't want to leave Elmo" he waited for a little bit then picked you up and put you in his car."

"He locked you in and drove here. On the way here you were screaming out the window "help me someone help" he told me that he said if you shutup I'll take you back to Elmo. So you shutup and just sat in the backseat all happy. Then he brought you here".

That was the first and last time I took any kind of pills. Unless the pills were medication. I do have allergies so I take medicine for that. Those friends that gave me the pills. My dad made me cut them off.