It's the morning time and today is my sophomore retreat which gives me chills just thinking about and now I must pull all my emotions out to the sophomore class
I enter the school bus and I sat in the back and quietly played on my phone and repeated the speech
We did a session and then it was turn to speak my nerves were through the roof
Attention this speaker are going to be vulnerable so please respect them and the story there telling and first up
Alex's
Hey guys
I looked nervous
Side note this will have triggers for some people just be prepared
As most of you know me as Austin but my name was changed to Alex why you may ask the crap I been through a lot. For me the names Austin is triggering for me when I was a freshman my mother left my family it was just me and my sister who a junior. My father became a alcoholic and watching them just doesn't feel good to watch them suffer. He drink more and then became abusive physically he would call worthless and I just die no one cares about me. Then the most disgusting thing that could happen to me my father used me his daughter as sexual object and soon got pregnant with his child. I didn't know what do I was so disparate to be free that I got an abortion done I understand that it wrong but I had no choice. When my father found out that I had done that he beat the shit out of me and had me starve to death. I didn't know how long I would live for but the mental strain on my life happen when I started getting bullied for begin myself. I lost faith and I started thinking suicide was the best option for me. One day I got an F on my test and my dad caused me to attempt suicide. Holding that razor is miserable you don't want to cut but you want to die and feel human again and don't want to feel numb. I had nothing to live for but when one of our theology teacher step in and saved my life I'm happy again. My only advice to you is to keep your head up hard days will past and never ever think suicide will solve your problem it will only cause more pain to your family and we want your around thank you
Alex that was a powerful speech I just want to tell you something that god will be there for you even if your family isn't
We did the rest of the retreat and then I got to go home and sob myself to sleep
Hey Alex
What dad
You okay
I'm emotional exhausted and just want to die
Oh sweet no one wants that
You sure
Yes
You are sweet loving girl
Why wrong the boys talk to me
What boys
High school boys treat me like shit
Boys are stupid my dad laughed
If you need to talk I'm here for you
Okay dad
He closed the door and I went Instagram some of the comments were disgusting and disturbing towards me. Calling a faggot and I should kill myself and I was fat and unloved my tears fell harder
I decided to change my name to Ally
Hey it dinner
I'm not hungry
My mom looked at me with concern eyes
You okay sweetie
I'm fine
You don't seem fine you always hungry she laughed
Go away mom please
I'm not leaving until you tell me what is wrong she demanded
Take a look for yourself
OMG she started crying
I told you
What wrong
Look
Hannah set this up
I'm so sick of this
By the way my new name is Ally
I like it it fits you
You want food
No I would rather fucking die
Sweetie you can't say that
I don't care obviously they want me dead
No they don't okay my dad said
I went to the table and all the food made my stomach hurt
I tried eating it but I couldn't stomach the pain so I ran off to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet as I laid my head on the toilet seat I started bawling my eyes as my dad rubbed my back
Just breathe baby girl you are fine
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Break OUT
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