♱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀɪɴᴛᴇʀ ♱

T h e D a r k n e s s

CHAPTER SIX

"While you were busy rinse
the omen of my heart slowly
I was dazzling the unholy
Water of red spider lily"

I..I wanted to say...

"-that this place is perfect for me. You don't have to worry about it." He said while looking around my workshop.

"You can arrange your belongings here, keeping in mind that you can take them home with you after the classes if you want." I said to Daniyal, my left hand resting on my hip and my right lying lazily on my side.

Past
At Deborah's home

I didn't talk with him the previous day at my workshop. I don't know why everything was fading up in front of my eyes. He called my name a few times, but I stood up and ran home. I couldn't stay another second there.

"That's because you were acting like a drama queen, some main character of a movie! Huh! " my subconscious said in a disgusted tone.

"No, I'm not! I just don't know what to do!" I felt frustrated. Things weren't going well for me at that point.

"Hey girl, look! Just call him and do your job! It's important and you know that well. JUST DO IT NOW!"
She yelled at me without any reason! Well, she IS in my head after all, so I think that's enough reason.

Yeah I have to call him

"I...I wanted to say..." I began and paused, swallowing hard, before continuing.

"...I can make you my student."

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Present
At Deborah's workshop

"But I wanted to stay here until my course is over with you," he said in a thoughtful tone while looking straight into my eyes.

WHAT!
What is he saying? I can't keep him in my house!

"Did he asked you to keep him in YOUR house? Dirty-minded girl!" My subconscious groaned but she has a point!

"Well, um, are you supposed to be staying in my house?" This was awkward! Am I a fool? Yes. Yes I probably was at that point. I was already acting like one.

"Haha, no!" He laughed and that made me realize what an idiotic mind I have.
"I was planning to stay here at your workshop. I guess it's big enough for one person to stay in, right?" He asked in a playful manner as he smiled slightly at me.

"Ye-yeah! Why not. You can stay here" I said while smiling, covering my stupidity!

What will he learn from ME? How would I teach someone? I don't know! Even I, myself, never learned from some teacher. All I had was my mom to teach me how to draw, how to paint, and all the other things about painting. She was a great artist but never let the world know it, I wonder why...

Oh I'm drifting from the point again!
What should I do in this situation? I'm not used to staying with a guy. Like, I never even had a guy friend either. Why do I panic in every situation? This shouldn't be that much of a problem.

I realized something.  I'm not staying with him all the time, just when he has classes with me. So why am I thinking like that?
Wow, I really need a reality check on myself...I'm obsessing too much over trivial things.

"Drama queen~" echoed in my mind as I made my way past him and through the door. I needed some alone time. As soon as possible.

Present
At Deborah's bedroom

"It's quite dark outside. No wonder why I love the darkness, it covers all your flaws" I murmured and smiled all on my own as I stared.

I'm standing in front of the open glass window, the wind blowing without restriction and caressing my face and body. Every time it touches my bare skin I feel the mournful sounds clashing on it! My wavey red hairs dancing with the rhythm, the rhythm of helpless screaming, carried by the cold wind.

I don't know when this nightmare will stop. Why I can't hold her hand? Why is it that every time she falls, she vanishes? Are these all my sins..?

The sins that I have done, without letting anyone know? Without letting myself know as well?

Will I be ever able to pay her back..?

♱ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀɪɴᴛᴇʀ♱

Ps/: did you saw the anime series "Tokyo Ghoul"?
The red spider lily has a great role in there. Many people say " red spider lilies guides the death through the samsara, the cycle of rebirth"
I suggest you to watch the "Tokyo Ghoul" series, it's amazing!