meet me in amsterdam | (chaesoo)

honey and the moon

Okay, so it seems that everybody was really sad after Meet Me In Amsterdam... so let me make you guys even more sad by telling you guys fun facts about this story!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Because what better way to mend a broken heart by adding more pain to it!!!!! And then setting it on fire!!!!!!! And then adding fuel to the fire to create a wildfire!!!!!!!!!

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Anyway. I think right from the very beginning, I've already hinted on Rosie's death. 

I think for the first few parts, the most telling of that 'hint' would be how I only allowed Jisoo to have flashbacks of memories she had with Rosie: from telling Jisoo that lifting one side of her mouth up wasn't a smile, to breakfast being a habit Rosie instilled in her when they dated for 3 years, and the fact that Jisoo would be humming tunes she makes up in her mind because it's what Rosie used to do.

In short, everything Jisoo now does in the present is because of what Rosie used to do in the past. In a way, I guess it was her unconscious way of keeping her lover alive.

The next way I hinted on Rosie's death was in the flower shop. There were three ways I went about this. One was a little bit more obvious: the interaction with Jennie.

The most obvious one was when Jennie asked if Jisoo was getting flowers for Rosie, she immediately left the counter to give Jisoo a hug. And I know many people would mistake that as a friendly hug, but it really was more of one to comfort her because Jennie knows.

Jennie knows that Rosie passed. Jennie knows that Jisoo still unconsciously tries to keep her lover alive in her mind. Jennie knows that Jisoo's way of moving on from Rosie's sudden passing was in still doing things she would have done if Rosie were still alive.

It's a little sad, I know, but people move on from traumatic events differently, and this was just Jisoo's way.

The second way I went about hinting on Rosie's death was actually in the choice of flowers themselves. I mentioned something about how Jisoo's usual bouquet of flowers for Rosie would include daisies and roses, hers and Rosie's favorite flowers. But this time, she added two new additions into the mix: hyacinths and chrysanthemums.

If you're well-versed in flowers, you would have guessed what was about to happen next here. Jisoo purposely chose to add those flowers into her standard bouquet because although she wanted to keep Rosie alive in her mind, she also wanted to come to terms with the fact that she is gone. 

For those of you who don't know, chrysanthemums are the flowers used to signify death. And hyacinths, they're the flowers used to signify letting go.

Jisoo wanted to accept that Rosie was gone with the chrysanthemums, signifying her passing, and even if she wanted to keep her alive even if it was just in her mind, she knew that she had to eventually let her go, too.

The third one, I guess was pretty obvious too. When Jisoo was leaving the flower shop, Jennie said something about how "Rosie is waiting for you" and how when Jisoo was standing outside the shop, she thought "Rosie will be waiting for me, anyway". I thought this was a pretty dead (too soon? Lol) giveaway to how this story was going to end, because Rosie wasn't going anywhere, anyway.

Anyway, I guess after this, I just had enough of all the random clues so I just dished it out straight: Jisoo was walking to the cemetery and then spent the entire day there just talking to Rosie and crying and questioning why the world was unfair to the both of them.

To be honest, I didn't really think much of this story when I wrote it. I wasn't even sad or anything when I decided on it, and the song inspiration I had for this story isn't even really a sad song. But when RINI kept going "If there is a next time, meet me in Amsterdam," in his song, I couldn't help but think about the idea of soulmates and the idea of a "next time".

Because if you have this life, why would you need a 'next time'?

Basically, that was my thought process in writing this one. And I just felt like I needed to explain myself because my god, when I first read through this story after publishing it, I was SO miserable the entire day. So yeah. We're all in the same boat.

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With all of this being said, I want to promote my new story!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I'm only doing it here because it's my apology for Meet Me In Amsterdam.

It's titled Honey & The Moon, and the first chapter is currently up. It's a new genre I'm trying out so we'll see how it goes from here. The book cover is here:

Anyway, that's all. 

As always, thank you for supporting my stories and I hope you would like this new one coming up!