Have you ever felt forgotten by the people you love the most? I have.
Every day is the same. I wake up. Go to school. Eat something and go to sleep. I feel like everyone has forgotten me. I live with my mom, my stepdad and my two younger step- siblings. They are twins. My stepdad hates me, because he says that i have to move out. I'm 15, where do you want me to go? My mom is madly in love with him, so she agrees with him. I haven't met my dad since i was 5, so i hardly remember him. But i definitely know that he is much nicer than my stepdad. Everyone is nicer than him.
My ,,parents" ,as they call themselves, don't give a frick about me. They don't care if i run away, they don't care if I have bad grades, and they don't care if i try to kill myself. Yes, i have tried it. Did i like it? No. Would I try it again just to get my parents attention? Yes.
A few weeks ago i met this kid. He seems weird but i like weird. He asked me to be his girlfriend, but i said no. I just feel like if i get into a relationship he is gonna leave me too. Just like my parents did, just like my best friend did, and just like my dad did.
Emily was my best friend since we were 3 years old. She was always there for me and we had a strong relationship. What happened you may ask? She killed herself last year. She just left me. I hate myself for not seeing that she was broken inside, that she needed my help. I just thought of myself. I'm selfish.
For the last year I haven't made any friends, except Henry. That's the guy who asked me to be his girlfriend. He is the only friend i have, but now i don't even know if he is still my friend after i rejected him. I can't loose another person in my life. I need Henry.
