It's 5:34 am, I haven't slept all night. I haven't slept for 3 days. I can't sleep, every time I close my eyes Emily is standing there. She has been showing up in my dreams for the last 3 weeks. Why now? Does it mean anything? Do I have to be worried? What if it means something? Sarah, stop. Stop overthinking about everything. You have to stop, it's getting out of hand.
..It's already 7 am. I sat in my bed, watching photos of me and Emily. She seemed so happy, but that was only a mask behind all of the stuff she was going through. You see... Emily's parents and her little sister got into a car crash when she was 7 years old. Her mom and sister died, but her dad was disabled for the rest of his life. Emily was saying that it was her fault, because they were going to pick her up from my birthday party. I was really worried about her but she said that she is ok and everything is fine. I believed her. 2 weeks later she killed herself.
My mom didn't even care, she didn't really like Emily, so she was actually happy she died. I didn't talk to anyone for 2 months. Not like anyone tried to talk to me. My only friend was Emily, and now she was gone... I loved Emily. She was like my guardian angel, always there for me, and she always helps me get up when my family brings me down.
I wanted to run away. Far, far away. I wanted to run away, but not alone. I want to be with someone who understands me and cares for me. I want to be with someone who will never forget me and accept me the way I am.
thank you all for the support <3 I love making these.
