Day((1)): Dear diary
Today will be different it has to be, I will smile and I will be a believable, my smile will say: " I am fine thank you " " yes I feel much better", I will no longer be the sad little girl who lost her parents, I will start fresh, be someone new, because it's the only way that I will make threw .
Day ((2)): Dear diary
I couldn't if been more wrong, I thought that I could smile, and complete my way threw it pretend that it all will be ok, I had a plane I wanted to change who I was, create a life as someone new , someone without the past, without pain, but it's not that easy, the bad things stay with you they follow you, you can't escape them as much as you want to, all you can do is be ready for the good, so when it comes you invite it in because you need it, I need it, because all what the people wondered about me is if I will be ok, and I told them I will be fine, but I don't if I mean it or not ...
Day ((3)): Dear diary
This morning is different, there is change I can feel it, I am a wake for the first time in a long time I feel completely awake, for once I don't regret the day before it began, I welcome the day, because I know I well see him again, for the first time in a long time I feel good, so I decide to go for a while, fly free walk in the sunshine
Day ((4)):Dear diary
Today I recommenced myself that I will be ok if I gave up, don't take risks, accept the situation, no drama now it's just not the time, and my reasons not reasons they are excuses, all am doing is hiding from the truth, and the truth is I'm scared, I'm scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment that the world is goanna crashing down, and I don't know if I will survive that …..
