Mattie Smith.

Chapter 19.

It's been two mouths. My brain is healing with my father's help I half of my frontal lobe back. My memories are slow but the doctor says I am blocking them out at the same time I'm trying to remember them. I have PTSD and short term memory lost. Hopefully soon my body will be back on track. I still don't know what caused my mind to break in the first place or where it happened at? I remember a lot of my past but recent memories from the last few years are still locked away or missed placed? 
Jax is moving everything here. He's so sweet. My parents are building us our own home here. My father and Jax don't want me to ever leave the kingdom again. They have put shields up to keep me in or let them know when I am close to the borders. I don't mind. All I have ever seen of this world is pain cold hard pain. My father did the same for my mother. He can't leave without my father going out with him. My mother has the same lead problems I do. He can't be around it. Being in a room made out of it really did help but it also did a lot of damage.

4 months later
I wake up in the middle of the night hitting Jax like I am a wild woman. Saying Jax you fucking bitch why? He grabs my hands holding me tight so I can't hurt him or me. I am crying yelling at him. Why? Just tell me why you ass hat.!!! He just holds me. My father comes in giveing me a shot. I calm down. Jax lays me down. I cry because I remembered what he did. Leaving me there alone. On our wedding night. You bitch I say as I turn myself which is hard to do. I make it to my back and that's it. I yell at him turn me I want to lay this way. He does holding me against him. I just cry asking him why? He says I'm sorry baby I really am. I open my link to him and his real feelings come in. He really does love me. He does regert leaving but feels he had too. I look into his memory seeing him in his office back then. I woman walking up to him kissing him. He pushes her away wipeing his mouth with a wet wipe. Saying Bitch iam done with you. I have my mate. FUCK off. She smiles saying does she know you married to me?? I am shocked by her word's he says please keep going. You will see. So I do. Her smile falls when my father walks in with his team of lawyers. They put paperwork on the table for her to sing she says no. My father tells her if she doesnt sing today she gets nothing. He's head lawyer hands her a pen. She pushes it all away saying she will ruin all of them. She has a girl bring in a small boy who looks just like her. She says he's yours looking at Jax. My heart pounds with pain. Jax holds me tighter. I try to get away from him he won't let me forcing the memory into my head. My father laughs saying he's a member of the 14 blood lines he can only have pups with his mates or if his mates are all dead he may choose a royal mate who's mates are also dead to mate and have children. My daughter is very much alive and well. So this boy can't be his. She looks like a red bomb just went off all over her. She knows what My father says is true so do I. The woman sings the papers leaving with the other's. Jax goes on showing me everything he did for the month he was gone. He planed on moving everything just to be with me from the very beginning. Damn I am a shit head. Jax chuckles saying no your not I would have been just as upset as you. But I wanted it to be a surprise. I try to turn over but can't. He turns me I kiss him. Letting him feel everything in me for him. We make love.
My heat is here thank God Jax is here and my family finished our house. It's wonderful having this many brothers. Jax is in his office. I walk in making sure no one is here. I am naked I sit on his lap. He kisses my shoulder asking when did it start? I say this morning. He nods. Putting up his thing's. I stop him saying he can still work just pull down your pants I will do the rest. He is stunned but quickly does it. I sit on his lap with his cock inside me while he work's. Yes Mandy told me about this. It works for both of us. I move every now and then he growls, I moan. See it works. After about an hour Jax throws his pen down standing up bending me over his desk and banging me. Fuck yes Alpha. He pulls my hair from behind while he thrust in and out. FUCK that's good Alpha. I moan as he fucks me. He goes for an hour cumming deep in me. It clams my head for a little while. Once he cums I suck his cock until he is clean. Getting up I walk out licking my lips looking him in the eye's. He growls coming after me. I run to the kitchen. Hiding under the skin. He finds me pulling me out and on to the countertop. Pushing into my pussy hard and fast. I am a moaning mess. Fuckkkkkkk I moan. He grabs my face kissing me. He pulls me down to him saying ride omega slaping me on the ass. I do as told. Riding him as he stands. He grabs my ass pulling my cheeks apart and two finger go in. I moan so loud at the feeling. He pulls me down bending me over and fucking me in the ass. FUCK ALPHAAAA. slap, pulling my hair to bend my back more for him. He's so fucking deep. He's locked in and cumming. He picks me up not breaking us and we go back to his office where we stay mating and him working. We only leave for food and bathroon breaks. This goes on for 2 weeks until my heat passes.

1 month later.
I pace knowing what it's going to stay. I am 44 years old almost acting like a 16 year old. I look at it when the timer goes off. Fear,worry, joy, happiness, LOVE are what I am feeling. I run to Jaxs office with the test in my hand. No one's here good. I am crying Jax jumps up coming to me saying Baby what's wrong are you hurt? I shake my head No. And yell out YOUR GOING TO BE A DADDY!!!! He looks funny and faints. I call my father who is here with my mother in less then one minute. I cry in my mother's arms my father checks Jax. Did I kill him? My parents laugh saying no sweetheart he just fainted he will be up in 20min to an hour. My father puts him on the couch. My mother and I make some tea. He ask What happened for him to faint? I show him the test and say please dont faint I don't think I can take other one. He smiles brightly saying Alex get your wallet we have shopping to do. I hear my dad grown in pain from the news. My mother says would you like if me and Mattie go out by ourselves? He is smiling until my dad let's out a grolw shaking the whole house. A window crack to our right. We jump whining. He comes holding my mother to him. Jax holds me. When did he get up. When your father growled in my face. Mom and I laugh. They playfully grow at us.

Shopping with mom for baby stuff never again. He knows what to get what not too. But we still have to look at everything. Read all the labels. Look it up. And then buy it if it's ok. 10 hours shopping is all it took for me to regert being a female. My father set with Jax drinking coffee and talking. Only coming when we needed something carried out. Trust me there is nothing more this baby will ever need. Jax is now putting the crib together. Which is pissing him off. I sit in the rocking chair my mother said I just had to have. I love it. I try to help by getting down on the floor with him I went to ask him what I could do but he picks me up putting me back in my chair saying your carrying. I nod knowing he's worried I might hurt myself. He goes back to work. I fold the monds of clothes my mother and I got. We bought for both sexes. Jax wants a boy first. I understand I kind of want a little girl and a boy. Both with Jaxs hair, my eye's, her my build him his father's. I start to picture them playing at the playground here. Runing around laughing. Jax smiles at me I smile back. Thinking I am so fucking glad I waited for him. I am glad he gave me a chance. Now we are mated, and having a baby. We will have a redo wedding after the baby. Jax shakes his head No I want you round in the tummy with my pups in your white long dress smileing lovingly at me. His eye gloss over as he thinks about it. Not happing I want a fited dress showing off my body. Jax growls picking me up and into the bedroom. Showing me just who I belong too. See it works for both of us. Cue jax grolwing.