The End of the Fucking World

Episode 1, season 3

         Alyssa's POV: To be honest, I feel way better now that i'm with James. This isn't something i'd usually say but i'm way happier with him then i'd ever be with anyone else including Todd. I have no regrets telling him I love him though I might not be completely ready to be his girlfriend or anything. Todd didn't give me anytime at all to decide what I want, what if I wasn't ready? Which I wasn't. I feel that I can trust James, he will give me time I just know it. Plus he's always asked me before doing anything. When I'm ready maybe James and I can start a family and have a home but for now we are just friends.

"Alyssa! Alyssa!" James shouts tapping me. "Sorry, what happened?" I ask realizing I completely zoned out. "Nothing, you looked scared" he says scooting closer to me. "Oh, I'm hungry." I say letting go of his hand and looking at him. "Okay, well let's go grab a meal then"

James's POV: I grabbed her hand again and stood up from the bench. I still couldn't believe she felt the same again. I swear I could never let go of her again, not even if I got paid a billion bucks. She fixed me. I don't feel like such a douche bag anymore and I don't think of everything being my fault. Alyssas the only person I feel that can understand me. I'm honestly kinda upset she doesn't wanna start anything more then being friends but I guess if that's what she wants then I'll have to wait until she's ready. I'm not taking another risk of loosing her.

We then start walking towards my car and get in still holding hands. I cant even let go of her. She snatches her hand away from me laughing "You need to drive, I won't ever be able to marry you if I'm dead from your driving." She says laughing. I roll my eyes at her "Oh fuck off" I say starting to laugh with her. I start the car and we head to the cafe. Once we get out of the car, I see her staring at the same table we sat at while talking to Bonnie awhile ago and I try to distract her. "Alyssa we're safe now there's nothing to worry about" "No I know, I'm fine. I just feel bad for her.. maybe she wasn't so bad. We should be in jail not her!" She says biting her lip. "Shut up! She's killed way more people then we did, Alyssa you need to stop worrying so much, really!" I say wrapping my arms around her waist. She kisses me softly and nods. I smile and she starts walking to the counters to make us food. Once we sit down she passes me a sandwich. She started talking and I knew but all I can think about how much I just wanted to make out with her right here right now. Seriously,I love this woman. "James are you even listening?!" She yells at me. "No- sorry" i say scratching my ear. She slaps my hand and I decide to listen to her now..she's scary sometimes.

Alyssa's POV: "Now, what I was saying is I wanna kiss you!" I couldn't believe I said that even though I probably made it obvious- I know I already kissed him but hey that was slightly. He looks at me like he's freaked out and I get sorta nervous but the next thing I know our lips are pressed against each other and all I can feel is his cold breath. We keep kissing for about five minutes until he pulls away crying. I swear this boy is so fucking dramatic. Seriously what did I do this time! I stare at him with no emotion, he looks like he loves me but like he wants to stab the fuck out of me at the same time. "Alyssa I need to talk to you later but you need to promise not to hate me"   WHAT THE FUCK? I need to know right now I mean- what if he doesn't love me or wants to leave me! "What is it James? I won't get mad I promise" that's a lie. If he can't tell me right now, it has to be bad.

James's POV:  This is gonna sound crazy but I don't wanna hide about how when I first met her I wanted to kill her but I also feel like I can trust her.. maybe it's to soon? "I said ill tell you later" I made that up because I don't think I will. Alright I'll tell her then buy her a puppy right after- girls seem to love puppies. "James tell me tell me tell me!" "I was planning on killing you when we first met" Holy shit. Shes now staring at me confused "Your joking right?" "No.." I say instantly regretting life. "That's awesome, any other things?" What the fuck? She didn't just say that. "I was a psychopath then but you sorta fixed me.." "THATS WHY YOU HAD THAT KNIFEE!" "Y-yup.. do you want a dog" "YES" I didnt actually want her to say yes to that, I guess I'm buying a dog.