The days are becoming longer and longer the more u stress. I feel as if i lose a part of me. My emotions are becoming bleak and dull and i cannot cry when i need to. I am preparing for lose that i cannot avoid both physically and emotionally. The days count down and its agonizing knowing it can happen any day. When she's gone, i'll be alone, just me and my brother. What will i do? How do i bounce back from losing a 2nd set?
The feelings i feel i beleive i dont know. i feel that whenever i do good bad always follows me. When i feel guilty of something i do happiness emerges. But i am not one who feels pleasure from pain. The days go by and i learn to deal with what i got. What i feel and what i do is how many can perceive me as the opposite. i make mistakes but some will hurt more than others its how i manage and show them is what makes me me. I cannot dodge what i cant hide. I cant dodge the inevitable
