Her Eyes Billie Eilish/Reader

Chapter 1

Y/N POV

I tried to fit into her crowd but I never could. Maybe that is what she wanted. She wanted me cause I pure to the scene. Now here I am in rehab with her nowhere to be around. No call no show. She was my everything, I lost everything for her but she gave me nothing. I still have a cigarette bud from her in my room. I used to stare at it from time to time. Now I can't look at it with out feeling like shit. All that 'making love' was just meaningless sex to her. She was my first. First time possibly my first love. Maybe that was why it was so hard to let go of her. This is my story and all the real events no sugar coating or anything. After she left coke became my best friend. My body became unrecognizable after her. After all the scars she put on me. I tried to kill myself over this girl. She told me forever but treated me like last place. No one wants last place. She was a queen to me but to her I was dirt.

Let me go back to the beginning. The first time I saw her. She had teal hair then she loved to dye it so it was always changing. My parents told me from the start she was bad news hell even all my friends did and I never listened. Her brother died and I took her in and made sure when she was crying I would be next to her. I held her want she wanted me to. I never left her side. But when I cried she let me sit there and she would text others. My feelings weren't first place to her. Maybe she was using me for comfort because she knew I wouldn't leave her side but her I am alone after she is finally done with me. I'm such a loser to believe all her lies.

Here is the day we met. It was a nice sumer day I just got out a relationship but it wasn't nothing serious or special.

I was late to work but it is alright the boss is a good friend of mine. I didn't want to go in but I heard we had a new girl she worked at the company before but just at a didn't store. I need to find my work clothes yesterday I worked a double so I was super tired today but hey I need the money for myself. I have been saving up so I haven't been using on myself. I finally had my mom drop me off yes my mom. I'm 17 still I don't have my license but I am getting it soon. I have the test coming up. I don't really have friends. I'm kinda a lonely loser but I'm popular at the same time. I understand it is weird but I like being alone and i don't know why truly. As I was walking into the back door I saw her. She was smoking a cigarette. She had to be in her twenties. She was young,she had dyed teal hair and her eyes, my God her eyes were so beautiful. I always wished to have colored eyes. She was talking to Jay my boss and best friend.

"Hey Jay, how are you?" I said staring at him. He had this smile on his face. Jay was 27 working in fast food still kinda sad but his life was pretty bad. It is why him and I clicked so much. We went through similar things. The first night I got drunk with him I spilled too much to him. He found out some of my demons that I had buried.  Jay wore glasses, he wasn't that good looking but he had this beautiful charm to him that attracted people to him. So he always had beautiful girlfriends. Hell right now his girlfriend and future wife is pregnant. I am the only one who knows about it but she is just scared to tell him which I understand because she is 18 and already has another kid that is almost 2.

"I'm doing eh, could be better I'll tell you later tonight." I sent him a smile and turn to the girl as he said, "This is Billie, she is 22 and working as an insider."  She had a smile in her face before she told another drag of her joe. God created her with no flaw in sight.

"Hey do you need me to train you?" I said to her. I basically lived at this place working doubles almost everyday. I knew this place and yet I still only got 7.25. It sucked but I can't complain some people don't have jobs.

I know the general manager is sexist and tries to sleep with all the women here. He has tried with me but and that lead to me to not getting a raise.

"Nah mamas, I worked at one of the other stores and moved her cause I didn't want to work with Penelope. She is such a bitch and doesn't even spread out the tips or anything." Billie said with a slight smirk at me. God that smirk could kill anymore. I watch slowly as picked up her cigarette with that damn smirk on her lips. I could see out the corner of my eye that Jay was staring at me. I was kinda known as a player by Jay.

I had many people always asking for my snap and stuff mostly girls. I do like women more than me. My bisexual ass can't make up my mind when it comes to boys and girls. I would fuck them and leave because for some reason I couldn't stay attached for long. I never my parents love each other all they did was fake it and they still do but they don't want to divorce because they have kids.

"Oh cool, thank God I didn't really feel like training someone again."  I said with a small smile on my lips.

Her and I didn't talk for the rest of the night but we took small glance at each other occasionally meeting each other eyes.