I've been a complete mess lately not knowing how to feel about myself wanting to kill myself every day ever since my mom died life hasn't been perfect now that I'm living with my dad and my stepmom I have to go to a new school I'm not looking forward to this new school but I guess it's fine when I moved here in the summertime I met my best friend who happened to go to the same school as me I guess I'll figure myself out but I have a secret no one knows about that I hope to Forget about but I will let you know the secret to tell you I'm gay I had this Secret for a long time I told my mom but I don't think it really matters because she's dead My dad is the most homophobic person I've ever met so I'm not looking forward to it I'm post to Get married in cooking clean and get a education I'm lucky to even get an education so I'm not looking forward to the first day of school why does my life have to be like this dear diary I'm a complete mess..........
