How to Save a Life •.*BakuDeku*.•

I love you

It's been almost a year now. I've waited patiently beside Deku the entire time. I'm getting hopeless now. I'm at the hospital today, but when I walked in the room, Inko was already there.

"Katsuki honey you shouldn't be here today, go home dear." I look at her with a bewildered expression

"Eh? What do you mean? I've been here every day why the fuck would I go home now?" I say, completely boggled why she would even ask that.

"It's for the best Katsuki, honey just go." My hands begin to ball up at my side, enraged that she was pushing me out.

"I'm not fucking leaving." I say sternly, not budging an inch. I was making it known I wasn't fucking going anywhere.

"Katsuki, I don't want to have to remove you by force." Inko said, peering down at her shoes instead of looking me in the eyes. It reminded me of Deku, and for a moment, I considered giving in.

"I'm not fucking leaving him." I spat, crossing my arms and glaring at her fiercely, even though I knew she wasn't looking at me.

"He can't go on like this." She practically whispers, tears starting to fall. I was so confused at her statement, until I started looking around the room. Everything was empty, the flowers that Inko and I replaced every day were gone, all the gifts and cards from classmates were gone, even the blanket Inko used to secure herself tightly in the little arm chair was gone. The room almost looked ready for a new patient if it weren't already occupied with a sleeping green haired boy. I began to put the pieces together.

"No... you can't." I say, my eyes wide and full of shock.

"I can't afford to keep him here any longer, it's best to just put him out of his misery." Inko said, trying to remain strong, when really she was falling apart. She was letting her son go.

"You can't just abandon him like that! Fuck, I'll pay for it if I have to, just keep him alive!" I screamed, drawing attention from nurses in other rooms, they began to fill the room, trying to calm the crying woman and sedate my anger.

"Katsuki, I don't want to do this any more than you do but we can't keep going on like this! It's time to let go." She said, tears spilling out all over the floor. I felt a burn in the back of my throat but I refused to cry. Crying meant I was giving up and I'm not giving up on Deku. I won't. I'm not letting him go.

"Move on?! He's your fucking son for god's sake have more faith in him!" I  scream, trying to talk her out of it, trying to keep the tears at bay, trying to fight the urge to break down and give up. My arms were being pulled behind my back and i was being pulled out of the room. I watched nurses swarm Deku and his mother, I continued to scream and fight for everything that I was worth to try and get back to Deku, I couldn't let him go, I cant let them take him from me, not when I haven't told him I loved him yet, not when I haven't told him that he's absolutely everything to me. I was almost at the doorway when I heard it. The heart monitor stopped its steady beat and went flat. They unplugged him. He's gone. I screamed even more and fought and kicked and screamed until I heard a slight cough. Everyone froze and time stood still. I could barely see Deku's green hair through all the people but I saw it, and I was clinging to it. It was my reassurance that he was still there, that they hadn't taken him yet. Another cough. And then another, and another, and another. Nurses began to frantically leave and re enter the room, with supplies and equipment, leaving Inko and I in a confused daze.

"K-Kacchan?" A small, raspy voice asked. My arms were let go and I dropped to my knees.

"Deku?" His name barely left my mouth, it was so small and quite I wasn't sure I even heard it at all. Was I imagining things?

"Why a-are you crying?" The small voice asked again. I picked myself up and tried to stay confident against the will of my wobbling knees. As soon as I looked down onto the bed, I was met with his brilliant green eyes again. I released the air I didn't know I was holding and immediately grabbed onto him. I sobbed and cried and screamed into his chest, all the while Deku just patted my head and whispered soothing words into my ears.

"I never thought I'd see those giant fucking green eyes again." I said through muffled clothing. I could feel Deku's heartbeat against my face and it soothed me.

"Deku I'm so sorry for everything, I should have been a better friend, hell, a better fucking person. I'm sorry sorry Deku. I love you so goddamn much." I began to cry again and I could feel Deku's heartbeat pick up. Did I say something wrong?

"Katsuki look at me." Deku said with a stern tone, and I did, he hardly ever called my by my actual name. His eyes were hollow and empty, they didn't hold the life I knew and loved. I swallowed thickly.

"Don't be saying these things because you think it'll keep me alive." Deku said, and I could hear the pain laced in his voice.

my head snapped up, and I pulled myself off of him.

"What the fuck? Deku I don't just say shit like that out of the fucking blue." I say, my intense stare boring into his stupid beautiful eyes. His expression went from a guarded, hollow, one to a brilliant smile. My breath caught in my throat.

"I've loved you for so long you idiot. I was just scared." I whispered. Deku immediately pulled me back down to his chest and held me tight. I wrapped my arms around his slim waist and snuggled into him. I missed his smell. I missed his eyes, I missed his smile, I missed *him*.

"I thought you didn't want me." Deku whispered.

"I thought because I didn't have a quirk that I was useless to you. But then I got one and you were even angrier. I thought you just hated me." I nuzzled my face in his neck and he ran his hands through my hair.

"I never hated you. I just thought pushing you away meant I didn't have to love you." I kissed his neck and he sighed.

"You need to work on expressing your emotions more clearly Kacchan." He said with a serious tone but I couldn't help smiling. "I missed you so much."

"I must've been gone a long time then." He says, making me frown in response.

"Shut the fuck up." I say, pressing kisses all over his neck.

"Did you say you loved me earlier?"

"Y-Yeah..." I stuttered out, suddenly finding it hard to breath. He never said he reciprocated, and that made my stomach hurt and my head dizzy. He sighed heavily.

"Even though you're stubborn and mean, I was never mad at you." He said, tilting his head up, allowing me more access to kiss him.

"I'm gonna need a lot of time Kacchan, but I love you too." And that was all I needed to hear.

I kissed every inch of his skin after that, and I was finally happy. I was home again.