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life is stupid

There are so many things to go over. First of all I got cheated on twice by the man who said he loves me and the only thing hed change about me was my last name. I guess i wasnt so perfect for his taste. So now i get to go through a 50/50 split with the child we had together, now all i have to look forward to ia moving out and just being depressed. I hate people, i never want to go into another relationship. The one time i thought i could be happy and it gets ripped away from me. He has chosen a younger girl with a voice squeaky and not very womanly. Of course what forst attracted him to her was the fact that she slept with him while we were still dating, and then she sat there and sent him "teasing pictures and videos". He said its something that he would love from me, yet when i had asked if i could do anything to make him happy or if he wanted anything from me and all he wouls say is "I dont know". Apparently after all this hurt and pain he put me through he was mad that i had changed his name in my phone that i pay for to "stupid cheating lieing ex". Like oh im sorry didnt mean to upset you. I will never sleep with anyone or date anyone ever again. I will be plenty happy by myself. Im done with "taking chances" and whatever else. Hes soooooooo conserned about my happiness now that we're not together but its none of his business and it never will be. I hope I just keel over and die. I hate this life and this world. He already found the love of his life moght as well let him complete his stupid little family where he fucks me over and steals the only thing I wanna live for away from me