lovin you,, ninnie x ethma

one; prologue

Nailea Devora

I grew up living alone with my mom, it was always just the two of us and I was truly happy that way, until Steven showed up.

My mom met Steven when I turned 15. The first time I met Steven was when I walked in on them having sex in my kitchen which is probably one of the most traumatic things a daughter can see her mother doing. 

Steven was never shy around me. After the kitchen incident my mom was very hesitant to bring her new boy toy home again.

My mother was never one to be out fooling around with guys, she seriously was the most loving and considerate person I had ever known. 

She put my needs first which you may think is standard treatment for a child but you'd be surprised at how many mothers don't actually put their children first.

The stereotypical ways for single teen moms was to be out, partying, and caring about their lives rather than their child's but my mom was different. 

She got pregnant at 19 and my dad left her, full on left the state and she never bothered looking for him again. she said and I quote "He left me when he found out I was pregnant and that pregnancy gave me the best thing in the world, now lucky for me I don't have to share it with his dumbass"

She was part of the PTA club at school, she was very involved in my studies and she was my biggest cheerleader when I played mini league soccer. 

All of that changed once Steven trailed into her life. The first time I saw him again after the sexual incident I was grossed out. I saw that man's ass and my mother spread out on my kitchen counter

After seeing that I stopped eating in the kitchen, I ate all my meals in my room and my mom didn't even bother trying to change that. 

But once I finally did see him again he gave me no respect. First, he could have apologized for traumatizing me, second he could have at least addressed the situation, third he could have at least looked me in the eye when introducing himself rather than on his phone and giving me a greeting hand.

After that my expectations were tremendously low. I already had high ones regarding the fact that this man is dating my mother, of course I am protective of her. 

it's like she's been brain washed by him. She spent most nights at his house and the next morning would come home and sleep during the day. She forgot about dinner and then soon enough it felt like she forgot about me.

Once I brought it up to her she apologized and started spending more time with me and we felt normal again until Steven felt left out and she started brining him along. 

Steven gave me attitude and treated me like I was nothing. he never physically abused me because he knew he would lose my mother but he did emotionally abuse me and he got away with it because my mother never seemed to notice it.

Now I'm 19. I graduated high school last year and Steven moved in the summer after grad. I could not live with that man and lucky for me my best friend Emma had just bought an apartment so I put in some money and moved in with her. Best decision I've made since Steven has come along.

Emma has a youtube channel. I don't, I dont want to have one anyways but I get in Emma's videos, I help her set up, and edit so it's like I have one as well.

Emma and I have been friends since elementary school when my mom was late to pick me up from school one day and so was hers.

Emma Chamberlain 

I grew up living with both my parents until they got divorced. I remember all the yelling, and fights and unresolved problems from when they were together and even as a young child it was a pain in the ass and it took a really big toll on my mental health.

Once they got divorced things were better for all three of us. They had been friends and together since highschool so they would never let their history all go to waste. They continued being best friends and co parented me

So I did have a single mom just like Nai but I had a dad too. My dad got remarried when I was 12 and I was having a really hard time with it even though she was nice, really really nice

Soon enough I got over it and I'm really glad that she makes my dad happy. My mom hasn't dated anyone since the divorce. she likes to be independant, and I'm happy for her

I started a youtube channel when I was 17, it was all for jokes. I wanted to pretened to be a youtuber and I vlogged at school one day and then posted it for fun

Then I realized it actually was kind of fun, and I posted some more videos before I started to blow up. Once I blew up I kind of took it into a full on career 

I could not do college, my mental health would not bare it and I would be unmotivated to do anything and it would destroy me.

So I decided to take money I made from youtube, some money from my parents and buy my own apartment with my best friend Nai. We live in New York but both of us want to move away to LA

Hopefully at some point, we do.

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