Dear brother |levis sister| Discontinued |

Training

Y/n POV

I make my to a cliff and sit down, I let one leg dangle on the edge and my other tucked into my chest, i watch the nightsky, it was nice and quiet...I don't tell anyone but I really love relaxing sure it seems like I love working out and getting stronger but I just do that to distract my mind from my suicidal thoughts, I lift up my shirt and look at my torso it was littered with scars I put there myself, I try not to go back to that addictive habit
"I wonder how Levi's doing, I frankly hope he's suffering like he deserves" i mutter

I fall deep into my thoughts....not good ones either
"Why do I have to look like this, all my team look great and beautiful why do I have to be ugly....they probably are going to leave me, just like Levi....I wouldn't blame them" I think
"Why did he leave me....he looked me straight in the eyes then left"
"Does Oceana hate me?"
"What about Nadja, or Keito, or Leo"
I get up and start walking away, I start making my way to the training grounds when I come across a puddle, I look at it and see my reflection, I scrunch my face up at this
"Jeez I look like a rat, my boring grey eyes, my black hair, my face, my nose, my lips, my chubby cheeks, my bland expression that's stuck on my face!" I angrily think, before going to a tree and punching it, making the tree s0atter into pieces I hear cracking sounds come from my hand I look down and see my hand bleeding out
"Fuck" I think, I hold onto my fist to attempt to stop the bleeding which doesn't happen
"...oh well...if I die I die" I think paying no attention to the heavily injured hand
"I guess I'll just have to do my morning routine like this" I think

I start doing my morning run of 150 laps, I hear a door open behind me I quickly turn around to just see sir shadis standing their glaring at me
"What are you doing up at this hour cadet?!" He yells
"Doing my morning routine sir" i blandly say
"At 3:00am?" He questions
"Yes sir" I reply
"Hm alright then don't wake up the other cadets though!" He orders
"Yes sir" is all I reply with before continuing to run

3 hours later

Oceanas POV

I wake up to my other Nadja snoring, I get up from my bed and look over at y/n she was already gone
"How many hours has she been up?" I think, I walk over to her, her bed-hair a mess like usual, I start shaking her but her being a deep sleeper doesn't wake her up
"WHAT UP NADJA!" I yell making her stumble up and fall off the bed
"Ouch" she sleepily groans
"C'mon Nadja we have to get read, y/ns already up"I say
"Y/n is a morning person, I'm not so slow your roll" she groans

After we get ready, we make our way outside and we see y/n working out already
"She really needs to slow down, she's gonna get herself hurt" I think
"Is she even human?" I hear a girl question
I make my way over to her along with Nadja, she was doing push-ups I look down at her hand which is heavily bruised and broken, I storm over to her she soon senses my presents,and stops
"What happened!?" I scold
"Calm down, I punched a tree and broke my hand" she replies
"Why!" I scold
"Just call it training" she blandly says, i go to say something it y/n speaks before me
"Go get the boys, we have to do our morning routine" she says
"Awww really" Nadja whines, y/n just glares at her
"Ugh fine" Nadja groans

We make our way to the boys cabins, we finally find Keito and Leo's cabin and I knock on the door, the door opens to see Armin
"Um hello" he shyly says
"Hi um is Keito and Leo in here?" I ask
"Yes but Keito-"he says before Nadja storms threw the door
"NADJA!" I scold, I walk in and see Leo still sound asleep, and Keito getting changed along with Eren
"Ugh sorry about her she's just really impatient" I groan before throwing Keito a top
"C'mon Keito we have our morning routine" I say
"Really? Man I hoped that we would stop once we got to the surface" Keito groans
"Yeah I know just because she has abnormal stamina" Nadja cries
"Um...." we hear Armin say
"Oh shit sorry" Nadja says, before walking over to Leo and pulling him out of bed by the leg, he falls on the floor making a thump
"AH!" He yells out
"Sorry Armin, Eren we just need to grab our idiots" I say
"It's fine...." they say leaving